separation anxiety
okay so here is the deal - I am ready to be in love. Ive never really been afraid of commitment per se, but I have been selective about who I will actually be with and Ive always had that fall*back boy as my safety net just in case things didnt work out. but I gave that up this time & I think Ive done everything right - but there are still complications! I want to be a part of couple - not just a girlfriend, but his girlfriend. I want that identity. I want to be vulnerable & honest. I want to know all his favorite things & all his little quirks & annoying habits. I want to do all the wonderful little things a girl in love does - I want to make him dinner & get dressed up just to impress him. I want to surprise him & watch football with him. I want to freaking watch football - a game I have been known to term ridiculous at the least! I want to go grocery shopping together & spend all night studying together & go to events together & just be together! now that I am finally ready to relinquish control over all aspects of a relationship & really have a truly equal partnership filled with love & romance & being completely & ultimately crazy about each other - why doesnt anyone want that?
of course the real question is - why doesnt he want that? because I thought we had that.. & I want that again.
of course the real question is - why doesnt he want that? because I thought we had that.. & I want that again.