come on baby light my fire ;]
great weekend with Rollie - no details, no pictures - just a great weekend :)
plans for today - clean my room ( wash clothes, do dishes, vaccuum maybe? ) dinner at Olive Garden with the Girlfriend & studying until the wee hours of the morning for my 9am Astronomy final tomorrow morning..
lot of things going through me right now.. more emotions than Ive had to deal with in a long time. & I honestly feel like I have no one to turn to.. no one who really gets me - all of me. I dont think Ive found my soulmate yet.. & I dont think my soulmate has to be a romantic partner - just someone who gets me. Im just questioning & doubting everything about myself & I feel like I dont have anyone to really fall back on ( not in the usual boy "best friend" sort of way - because I really truly am over that ) but to catch me, to understand me.
I thought I had someone for a long time - up until I really needed them.. up until I just got to be too much for them. I am an overwhelming person. I expect too too much I think.. I expect the world because I expect to return it.
dont worry - Im not really upset. Im not really sad. just thinking, processing, playing over every piece of myself & picking it apart in my head, unsure of what to think of it all. it is in fact about me.