Something Perfect
So my dad still isn't home from work and I have no idea where he is or even who to call to find out. He's never been out this late without coming home from work first. Grr.
Okay...so the real reason why I'm updating...I'm happy. Yeah...weird that it's lasted this long without the feeling of "it's too good to be true". It's nice, I like it...and I think I could learn to like it as an everyday thing-just may take some adjusting, but it'd be nice. Even when issues like moving in together, staying together forever, getting married, and having kids comes up-it all just seems...possible and it all just feels real, finally. So after thinking that this could never happen and it does...what do I have left to think about if I was wrong before and it really did turn out okay? Even though it makes things seem brighter and more hopeful, it still leaves me confused as to how I should at things now if they all really are changing for the better. It kind of feels...like it's not really my life because of how good it's been lately-but at the same time it stills feels like my own life and it's real...everything that's happening is actually in reality rather than something that I've dreamed up to make myself happier for a moment to push away everything else. I don't know. Maybe life is really going to turn out okay...just maybe. I Love You Chris ♥ <3
Okay...so the real reason why I'm updating...I'm happy. Yeah...weird that it's lasted this long without the feeling of "it's too good to be true". It's nice, I like it...and I think I could learn to like it as an everyday thing-just may take some adjusting, but it'd be nice. Even when issues like moving in together, staying together forever, getting married, and having kids comes up-it all just seems...possible and it all just feels real, finally. So after thinking that this could never happen and it does...what do I have left to think about if I was wrong before and it really did turn out okay? Even though it makes things seem brighter and more hopeful, it still leaves me confused as to how I should at things now if they all really are changing for the better. It kind of feels...like it's not really my life because of how good it's been lately-but at the same time it stills feels like my own life and it's real...everything that's happening is actually in reality rather than something that I've dreamed up to make myself happier for a moment to push away everything else. I don't know. Maybe life is really going to turn out okay...just maybe. I Love You Chris ♥ <3