Kiss the Rain

[fallen_endings]

Well I haven't updated in about two weeks, so I guess I should. I'm not even going to bother tell about everything that's happened in the past two weeks...it's not really worth it. But lately, there's something that's been bugging me...a lot. I'm torn between three things that I love, but the thing is...I can't have all three at once-it just doesn'

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[fallen_endings]

That was definitely my most retarded entries, but yeah lol. And you're right...about it all. Even though I love the goldfish, it's really just screwing me up...making things worse than they were before. And it does hurt to let go, but I really think I already did. I had this dream awhile ago. The dream scared the shit out of me until I actually sat down and thought it through to figure out what it meant. I ended up realizing that I let go...that I let go because I knew what was best. But I'm still afraid to let go in reality even though I'm sure my heart already has. Don't get me wrong, I still love the goldfish...but maybe not as I did before. The ferret has always just been there in the back of my mind to bug me. But sometimes I'd rather just kill the ferret rather than smile at it. I really don't think it would last long either. I'd probably end up hurting myself in the end. And then there's this kitty. I knew there was something special about it when I first saw it...and that something special really grew on me and I became attached to it. Which may have not been the smartest move, but I couldn't help it. But there's one downfall to the kitty...I'm really not allowed to choose the kitty, yet. I will in awhile, but not right now or tomorrow, or the day after...for awhile. Which really kills me, but I guess if I really love the kitty that much...than I can wait, right? But there definitely is something special about the kitty...something so wonderful. The kitty doesn't hurt, doesn't make me angry or confused...and I've always held on to it. So I guess I wait for awhile, forget the ferret, and work up enough guts to tell the goldfish. Yikes. Thanks Mindy...you really always know what to say...and you're right, as usual. Haha. * I Love You* <333

[ntoxicateddream]

You're welcome. I really don't know about the whole "being right as usual" haha...but I think that you've got this one figured out. It's gunna be hard to let go of the goldfish...but over time you'll come to realize that it was meant to be. And with the kitty...it seems to me that this kitty means a lot to you. So waiting until you can actually have it..well it will all be worth it in the end. I think that you'll be really happy with the kitty and things will all work out. Good Luck! *I Love You* <33 Mindy