oh will it ever end?
confusion and fear.
the only words that can really describe me today....i am so sick and so tired of all the things being said at my expense....some ppl just need to be knocked off their pedastals...bring them back down to reality for just a minute..but no, again i open my mouth and force myself to bite my tongue..ofcourse...
i talked to ria last nite....she's worried about me. so is kalyn too from waht i hear...hell I'M worried about me ....it all keeps building and building every time i think my life has finally settled down and taht i am finally happy and i get my hopes up, i have an even harder fall and damn its getting harder every day to deal with and to not say things simply because i dont want to hurt others...
some emails are on my mind...some livejournal bull shit is on my mind...and mmy state of mind is on my mind if that makes one bit of fucking sense...im getting tired of wearing this wristband....and im tired of ..nevermind i wont even say
yesterday i took a pregnancy test..negative..happy birthday brandon i hope your happy with HER....
the only words that can really describe me today....i am so sick and so tired of all the things being said at my expense....some ppl just need to be knocked off their pedastals...bring them back down to reality for just a minute..but no, again i open my mouth and force myself to bite my tongue..ofcourse...
i talked to ria last nite....she's worried about me. so is kalyn too from waht i hear...hell I'M worried about me ....it all keeps building and building every time i think my life has finally settled down and taht i am finally happy and i get my hopes up, i have an even harder fall and damn its getting harder every day to deal with and to not say things simply because i dont want to hurt others...
some emails are on my mind...some livejournal bull shit is on my mind...and mmy state of mind is on my mind if that makes one bit of fucking sense...im getting tired of wearing this wristband....and im tired of ..nevermind i wont even say
yesterday i took a pregnancy test..negative..happy birthday brandon i hope your happy with HER....