It's not always good to live your dreams

[fallen_april]

When stress is crazy, and you just need to be alone... April curls up on her bed and draws. She's having an off-day, apparently, because most of her efforts have been pretty crappy, but it happens from time to time. Granted, not quite this badly, but she's willing to believe extra stress could do that.

The door's unlocked.

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[rockstardavis]

A rockstar walks into the room, smelling of smack and cigarette smoke. "Yo, baby." It feels familiar somehow, like a familiar hurt come back, a familiar pain.

[fallen_april]

It does. It's more familiar than she'd like. But April smiles, glad to see him (even if she has a secret that she doesn't know how to tell him), and gets up to kiss him.

"Hey, you. I've been looking for you, where've you been?"

[rockstardavis]

He kisses her, off-handedly, tasting of smack, pot, and cigarettes. "Oh, around. You know me. It's a rockstar thing."

[fallen_april]

April frowns a little. He was clean, she thought. And she thought he wasn't really much of a rockstar in practice anymore either. "Working on the movie, I guess," she assumes for her own sanity. "Makes sense. How's it going?"

[rockstardavis]

"Oh, it's going." Roger shrugs. "Listen, girl. It's not working. Mimi's better in bed, you know." He smirks, hungrily. "It's all that bendy from the stripping."

[fallen_april]

April stiffens, and stumbles back a few steps. "Wh... what are you... you're leaving me?"

No, no, no. This can't be happening. This is like a nightmare, it can't be happening.

[rockstardavis]

Roger shrugs. "Rockstar." He pauses. "Never really loved you anyway. I was just leading you along because, well, the sex was good, and it's damn good to have someone to get high with."

[fallen_april]

April closes her eyes, and tries to ignore the pain in her chest and the tears welling up in her eyes.

"Please," she whispers. "Please, baby, stop this. What's going on?"

[rockstardavis]

"Nothing's going on. That's the point. I'm me, and you're you, and there's no us anymore. Hell, I don't even really know if there was to begin with." Roger turns to leave, the smell of drugs following him.

[fallen_april]

"Roger, wait... Roger!" April sobs as she calls out after him, hardly noticing the tears streaming down her cheeks.

He doesn't turn around. He just walks out, leaving her behind and alone and broken.

She stands there for a long time, just sobbing, unable to move. Then... well, she needs someone. She needs to be held, she needs to be told that she's not worthless, like she feels just now.

She heads up to another room and bangs on the door. "JD!" she calls, her voice wobbling, her sobs catching in her throat. "JD, please open the door!"

[sensi_doctor]

JD opens the door. His expression's like stone and it doesn't change, not even when he sees her standing there, sobbing.

"What do you want?" He glares at her, hard.

[fallen_april]

That reaction bring her sobs up short, and she gasps a little to keep from sobbing more.

"I... Can I come in?" she sniffles. He's just having a bad day. That's all it is. "I don't... I don't want to be alone right now."

[sensi_doctor]

"Why? So you can fuck me over more? I'm not interested."

The door stays between the two of them.

It's not open very much at all.

"You were more than happy to leave me alone. I'm perfectly happy to do the same."

[fallen_april]

April steps back, looking like JD had slapped her across the face. "I... JD, I'm... I'm sorry, I just don't... I don't have any... anybody else."

Please, let him change his mind. Please, please, she can't be alone right now. She can't.

[sensi_doctor]

"Yeah, you're a really sorry little bitch, aren't you? Well, good for you, but I'm tired of dealing with your shit. Understand?"

He opens the door as she backs away, completely emotionless, except for the bitterness in his voice.

[fallen_april]

April's shaking, and gasping, and trying so hard not to just break down and sob hysterically.

"If... if you want me out of your life..." she starts, and can't finish the thought. It's taking all her willpower to not just crumple to the floor.