Consarnit!
Ok, only updated 4 days ago but here's the basic deal.
Saturday night, Last Blast. Dancing with Horn, dislocated my knee. Fucking sore, had to go in an ambulance to the hospital. Now I'm fucked off at everything.
I hate being dependent on people. I can ask for help sure, but I can't even have a shower under my own force at the moment. I tried and then I slipped and twisted or knocked or something, you guessed it, my dislocated knee. Will had to help me back to my room and all I was in was a towel and it was so stupid and embarrassing.
It's mine and Lee's anniversary tomorrow and I wanted to send him his present and I can't even do something as simple as go down to the shops to get stuff to post it in. Horn said over an hour ago he would come and drive me down there so I could get stuff and what not, and he still hasn't come back. This is why I hate being dependent on people, 'cos you can't rely on other people. I've always been an independent, even when I broke my foot and was on strict orders to stay in bed for the whole week I didn't, I wouldn't let mum do anything for me. But now this is worse. I can barely get socks on and everything is so hard. I can't even sleep properly because of this sexy as bitch of a knee brace I have and I have crap hard wooden crutches and besides my knee hurting now my hands and armpits do too.
I just want my Mum and Lee. I want people I can rely on to help me out when I need it.
I have this daydream or this wish or something that tomorrow I'm gonna just be sitting in bed and there'll be a knock on my door among the constant stream of others and it won't just be anyone it'll be Lee and he'll make things all better. Or that it'll be my Mum and that she can help me for a couple days. Or it'll be both of them and then everything will be so close to perfect it will be scary.
I think Horn just came back...maybe I will get to go to the shops after all.
Lee: I'm so sorry. All I wanted was to send you part of your present and now I'm all fucked up and can't do something so simple as that.
Natalie: You should come and visit me, I'm so intensely bored and can't concentrate right now. I think I need to apply for aegrotat.
Halie: I'm so glad you are my friend and that you bought me toast. I wish you could help me more, 'cos I know I could rely on you if I needed to.
Barnesy: Thank you for relieving my boredom if only for a while. And sorry I had to run away from you :)
Saturday night, Last Blast. Dancing with Horn, dislocated my knee. Fucking sore, had to go in an ambulance to the hospital. Now I'm fucked off at everything.
I hate being dependent on people. I can ask for help sure, but I can't even have a shower under my own force at the moment. I tried and then I slipped and twisted or knocked or something, you guessed it, my dislocated knee. Will had to help me back to my room and all I was in was a towel and it was so stupid and embarrassing.
It's mine and Lee's anniversary tomorrow and I wanted to send him his present and I can't even do something as simple as go down to the shops to get stuff to post it in. Horn said over an hour ago he would come and drive me down there so I could get stuff and what not, and he still hasn't come back. This is why I hate being dependent on people, 'cos you can't rely on other people. I've always been an independent, even when I broke my foot and was on strict orders to stay in bed for the whole week I didn't, I wouldn't let mum do anything for me. But now this is worse. I can barely get socks on and everything is so hard. I can't even sleep properly because of this sexy as bitch of a knee brace I have and I have crap hard wooden crutches and besides my knee hurting now my hands and armpits do too.
I just want my Mum and Lee. I want people I can rely on to help me out when I need it.
I have this daydream or this wish or something that tomorrow I'm gonna just be sitting in bed and there'll be a knock on my door among the constant stream of others and it won't just be anyone it'll be Lee and he'll make things all better. Or that it'll be my Mum and that she can help me for a couple days. Or it'll be both of them and then everything will be so close to perfect it will be scary.
I think Horn just came back...maybe I will get to go to the shops after all.
Lee: I'm so sorry. All I wanted was to send you part of your present and now I'm all fucked up and can't do something so simple as that.
Natalie: You should come and visit me, I'm so intensely bored and can't concentrate right now. I think I need to apply for aegrotat.
Halie: I'm so glad you are my friend and that you bought me toast. I wish you could help me more, 'cos I know I could rely on you if I needed to.
Barnesy: Thank you for relieving my boredom if only for a while. And sorry I had to run away from you :)