Sweet Release
Sometimes I feel so shallow.
I don't know why. I'm probably not on the grand scale of things. Sometimes though I'll like walk through the mall (quite often) and I'll see about a bazillion things and just think to myself, or even say it "I want that" Theres so many better things I could contribute to in my life than providing Glassons with half of their profit for the year, but that's all I want to do. Buy out the mall.
I don't think it does make me actually shallow, but I feel it.
So, my latest insecurity. No longer do I worry so much about my body, about what Lee is doing and whether he still feels the same way about me. I worry about whether I'm shallow. I suppose at least it's worrying about what *I* think and not about what others think.
That was my emo-moment for the day.
I feel kinda stuffy, but only in one nostril. It's weird. I hope I'm not getting sick. I'm not doing anything this weekend so I might just stay at/in bed and tackle it before it gets a hold so that I am all well for MY BIRTHDAY NEXT FRIDAY!!!!
Then Cam comes on Saturday to visit for a week. It will be fun. So far the plans are to have the flatwarming on saturday and go to the casino on sunday...but I don't know what else to do 'cos I probably should still do work during that week. Especially considering my first essay is due the week I come back from holidays and that I have a psyc test the week after the week cam is here. I should be sweet 'cos I'm good at psyc. I'll just do lots of work in the last week for the essay so I can work on it during the holidays then finish it when I get back. I figure if I put this out there I have to go through with what I said.
So, now I'm gonna go talk to Cam 'cos he is online and I am trying to upload some pics and they are being mental.
Even though Cam is awesome and we will have fun and it will be good to see him, I wish Lee was coming.
I don't know why. I'm probably not on the grand scale of things. Sometimes though I'll like walk through the mall (quite often) and I'll see about a bazillion things and just think to myself, or even say it "I want that" Theres so many better things I could contribute to in my life than providing Glassons with half of their profit for the year, but that's all I want to do. Buy out the mall.
I don't think it does make me actually shallow, but I feel it.
So, my latest insecurity. No longer do I worry so much about my body, about what Lee is doing and whether he still feels the same way about me. I worry about whether I'm shallow. I suppose at least it's worrying about what *I* think and not about what others think.
That was my emo-moment for the day.
I feel kinda stuffy, but only in one nostril. It's weird. I hope I'm not getting sick. I'm not doing anything this weekend so I might just stay at/in bed and tackle it before it gets a hold so that I am all well for MY BIRTHDAY NEXT FRIDAY!!!!
Then Cam comes on Saturday to visit for a week. It will be fun. So far the plans are to have the flatwarming on saturday and go to the casino on sunday...but I don't know what else to do 'cos I probably should still do work during that week. Especially considering my first essay is due the week I come back from holidays and that I have a psyc test the week after the week cam is here. I should be sweet 'cos I'm good at psyc. I'll just do lots of work in the last week for the essay so I can work on it during the holidays then finish it when I get back. I figure if I put this out there I have to go through with what I said.
So, now I'm gonna go talk to Cam 'cos he is online and I am trying to upload some pics and they are being mental.
Even though Cam is awesome and we will have fun and it will be good to see him, I wish Lee was coming.