so sick
im so sick i think i may die.
i have never in my life met a sweeter guy than luke. nor have i ever met a more persistant guy ;) i basically told him at the get go that there was no way in hell that he and i would ever get together, and he would tell me, "you'll crack, you'll break down". and then i would laugh. then i started talkin to him online late at night. and he would say the sweetest things. then i quit my night job and had been spending more and more time with just him, instead of a whole group of people. not to long ago he kissed me, and you know how you just feel that spark? that notion that this could be something great? well i felt that. and it hit so hard that i got scared. then last night he asked me out in italian, which was mad hoTT. and i didnt answer him. tonight he asked me out in english and i said yes! of all the years ive known this guy, never in a million years think that i would feel this way about him. he has stayed here every night this week, cept for tonight cuz he has to be up at 6 and i dont, so he didnt wanna wake me <3. and im so effin sick and would you know he didnt even go home and change out of his work clothes before he came over to make sure i was okay? then he went and got me fruit cuz i hadnt eaten, and just took really good care of me. he went and bought me sprite to drink and made me take my medicine. hes so fucking cute sometimes i cant take it. im so sick of being dicked around by guys, and i know without a shadow of a doubt, he isnt going to be one of them. now i have to lay down. and hopefully get a full nights sleep. XoXo
i have never in my life met a sweeter guy than luke. nor have i ever met a more persistant guy ;) i basically told him at the get go that there was no way in hell that he and i would ever get together, and he would tell me, "you'll crack, you'll break down". and then i would laugh. then i started talkin to him online late at night. and he would say the sweetest things. then i quit my night job and had been spending more and more time with just him, instead of a whole group of people. not to long ago he kissed me, and you know how you just feel that spark? that notion that this could be something great? well i felt that. and it hit so hard that i got scared. then last night he asked me out in italian, which was mad hoTT. and i didnt answer him. tonight he asked me out in english and i said yes! of all the years ive known this guy, never in a million years think that i would feel this way about him. he has stayed here every night this week, cept for tonight cuz he has to be up at 6 and i dont, so he didnt wanna wake me <3. and im so effin sick and would you know he didnt even go home and change out of his work clothes before he came over to make sure i was okay? then he went and got me fruit cuz i hadnt eaten, and just took really good care of me. he went and bought me sprite to drink and made me take my medicine. hes so fucking cute sometimes i cant take it. im so sick of being dicked around by guys, and i know without a shadow of a doubt, he isnt going to be one of them. now i have to lay down. and hopefully get a full nights sleep. XoXo