my weakness is i care to much....
hey yall. haven't written in a while. hope everyone is well. i don't know how i'm doing. i'm so lonely. i have nobody.the closest thing i have to a best friend is eric, and i've never actually met him. i met him on hot or not, and we talk on the phone. i mean i have justin buck and bradley and them, but i can't really talk to them. i thought justin was my friend, but he's got real shady. he got to where he would only talk to me when he wanted me to get him pills, and he knew i would get them just because i love him to death. as for daniel, i've just about made up my mind that i'm never gonna get him back. it hurts so bad. words can't describe how much i love him. i would do anything for him. but ya know, shit happens, ppl change. i've racked my brain so much here lately and i can't decide, is it me or is it everybody else. am i really that bad?! i mean shit! for everybody to just up and leave, there must be something wrong. i've also been thinking about getting back on the meds, but i really don't want to. i hate taking them, i feel like i depend on them to be happy. but they help....sometimes/ i've also been thinking of getting back to church. james, this guy that i went with, came in yesterday, and it was really weird to see him. he said they had been missing me, but i doubt that!! i miss him and wesley. speaking of, i need to call wesley tomm. yall, if you believe in it, please pray for me. i need something right now, and i'm not sure what it is, i just want to find it, and i just need help all around. i need to get the rest of my stuff together for gadsden. i still haven't gotten all my paper work in, and i need to take my placement test, change my major, and sign up for orientation. omg! starting like august 2 i have to be down there at 8 every morning for band, i'm dreading the drive. but i need to go to bed. i leave yall tonight with a song. it's about me..i swear...
Foo Fighters- Best of You
I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you
Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Foo Fighters- Best of You
I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you
Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?