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Okay so I seriously think I'm going to live with my grandparents. I'm so sick of everything here. It's not my family its just everything. I hate bartonville..I really hate it. I used to like it but now..my god it's so stupid. I dont know why but everyones pissing me off. I really dont know why.. but they are. I want to get away..Just leave..run away forever. I wish I was in florida with my aunt vickie..even though she's mad at me right now too I think. I dont know. I've hurt everyone close to me and for that I feel like such a terrible person. I hate myself so much for it. Why..Why did I do all of that. Why did I change so much? I hurt everyone, I hurt myself. It's so stupid..I'm so stupid. But one of my very good friends told me instead of throwing a pitty party go out and actually do something about it and I am. Tomorrow is the start of church camp and I'm changing completley. I miss how I was. After that I think I'll move in with my grandparents. Like they said it may be boring out here but I'll have love. I have love here but its not the same. I do love it over there. Plus they'll give me structure and I think I need that. *Sigh* I dont know what to do at all. Florida in two weeks...two freaking weeks. I cant wait at all. I think I just need a long vacation. I dunno. The last few days at my grandparents have been great. It just feels so great to get away from everything and everyone for a while.
Have you ever liked someone you least expected you'd ever like? Yeah..well Im going through that. I'm not supposed to like him..I'm really not. Everyone is always like "I think you should go out with ((insert name of person here))" but I never really thought about it. It's just weird cause hes one of my really good friends. I dunno. I'm so stupid I sware. I can never make up my mind about anyone..Well besides one person but fuck that idea in the ass.
Well..I gotta go pack. I'll update in about a week. :-\ I love you all. Leave me lots of comments or call my cell. 258*3363
Have you ever liked someone you least expected you'd ever like? Yeah..well Im going through that. I'm not supposed to like him..I'm really not. Everyone is always like "I think you should go out with ((insert name of person here))" but I never really thought about it. It's just weird cause hes one of my really good friends. I dunno. I'm so stupid I sware. I can never make up my mind about anyone..Well besides one person but fuck that idea in the ass.
Well..I gotta go pack. I'll update in about a week. :-\ I love you all. Leave me lots of comments or call my cell. 258*3363