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man i hate when shit hits the fan me and marissa have -160 how great is that that week of moving and the warp tour killed me, i pulled my groin, and no not just some pussy thing that goes away in a day it still hurts to an extent right now aslong as i stay medded up it will be alright, bad news i still need the money for my truckdriving school, dates been pushed back to teh 30th just incase i dont heal in time. but jaycee just bought my screen printing shit and will give me half on the 15th thats a good chunk of the money i need, all i do is sit around all day and watch tv havent really eating that much that whole week i could barely walk, i just want to be better and out of here making real money already and getting my self back on my feet cuz im falling pretty fast right now i feel like im about to crash and wish when i go to sleep and go earse every thing and just start over like a video game that would be nice. i think marissa wants to stay in tonight well see, i kinda wanna go out. i need to drink my worries away thats what i need to do i dont feel so well. my minds been going through some shit lately when you have nothing better to do then just chill around and watch tv you think about a lot of shit. i make my self feel like shit sometimes, cuz ive fucked up, i cant make it any more ive basicly failed. i was once on top but now im on the very bottom, ive dug myself way to deep. so deep the the pressure is getting to me i think its giving me mild depression which sucks because im always a happy person. oh well hopefully ill get better soon i hope because this shit is killing me. sorry to every one iveput through shit or made them feel bad over the last 2 weeks. man i need to stop before i keeep rambling