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i just found out that a boy i once had interest in and madeout with is now engaged. bummer. i would have liked to test those waters a little more but hey, atleast hes happy and found the girl of his dreams. well, hopefully. young love can be confusing.
and then theres the current boy of interest, whom is in a relationship. sucks right? well, not exactly. you see, even tho he has a girlfriend, it doesnt seem to stop him from flirting with me and telling me how he and i are going to hook up sometime soon. my god this boy is beautiful. id hit that in a heartbeat..but then my morals kick in and tell me i shouldnt be getting involved with someone that is in a relationship. but then i think about how bad i wanna hook up with him and how much of a cunt his girlfriend was when i met her. its soo confusing. i want him soo bad tho. and its not like im trying to steal him from her or anything, cuz all i want from him is his sex. my brain might explode from all this but its soo worth it.
oh, and dont forget little long island boy, whom is still in love with me..and still hasnt grown up enough for me to take it into consideration. on top of that, he talks too much smack about people even when he isnt sure if its true or not. he seems very bitter and confused and jealous and probably a bajillion other emotions mixed into one. maybe someday hell grow up and then something could come of us. i mean hell, he already said we should get married someday haha.
and on a more local note, theres a boy that works near where i work that i seem to have caught an eye or two from. we have yet to speak, however, he seems to always be around certain areas at the same time as i am. and he always seems to be looking at me. maybe ill wander into his work sometime and see what kind of conversation begins..if any.
and then theres the current boy of interest, whom is in a relationship. sucks right? well, not exactly. you see, even tho he has a girlfriend, it doesnt seem to stop him from flirting with me and telling me how he and i are going to hook up sometime soon. my god this boy is beautiful. id hit that in a heartbeat..but then my morals kick in and tell me i shouldnt be getting involved with someone that is in a relationship. but then i think about how bad i wanna hook up with him and how much of a cunt his girlfriend was when i met her. its soo confusing. i want him soo bad tho. and its not like im trying to steal him from her or anything, cuz all i want from him is his sex. my brain might explode from all this but its soo worth it.
oh, and dont forget little long island boy, whom is still in love with me..and still hasnt grown up enough for me to take it into consideration. on top of that, he talks too much smack about people even when he isnt sure if its true or not. he seems very bitter and confused and jealous and probably a bajillion other emotions mixed into one. maybe someday hell grow up and then something could come of us. i mean hell, he already said we should get married someday haha.
and on a more local note, theres a boy that works near where i work that i seem to have caught an eye or two from. we have yet to speak, however, he seems to always be around certain areas at the same time as i am. and he always seems to be looking at me. maybe ill wander into his work sometime and see what kind of conversation begins..if any.