May 24, 2007 13:55
I'm sick of living with people. I'm sick of living with people and their significant others. I'm sick of having to go without a shower because there is no hot water. I'm sick of being kept up at night when my roommate is playing wow with the volume up at max level. I'm sick of feeling bad at the expense of somebody else feeling good. I'm sick of feeling guilty for seeking happiness. I'm sick of feeling abandoned by people I care about. I'm sick of feeling inadequate.
I've built a legacy of putting the needs of other before those of my own...even when my own are more important to me. I've gotten so much better, but it seems that I have so much further to go.
I'm going to start taking more chances. I don't owe anybody anything and have no reason to hold myself back anymore. The world certainly won't wait for me, so why should I wait? There's too much out there, there is so much that I want to feel and experience.
I can't hold myself back for uncertainty any longer. I refuse to get back into this depressing cycle. There is nobody in the world worth being miserable over. This is not who I want to be.