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i feel fat, and it pisses me off.. i'm narsasitic to a point and it drives me crazy.. I want to be bulimic.. and the more i try at it the less its doing.. i need to tan. i know it sounds really lame, but i feel better about myself after i tan.. i think if i can get myself down to the weight i want in rappid form.. it'll be easier to keep it lowered. I want more tattoos.. the lines on mine arnt straight and the color decided to fade about 19873410984097 shades lighter.. i hate food.. and i hate that i love it.. and i hate my fucking skin... this comming from a skin care consultent. things better work out. I'm not going to my family christmas party looking like this. I'm sick of me.. i'm switching colleges, changing my last name back to my family name, and getting a better job.. why should i stay the same... i havent done yoga for... well the last time i wrote about it in here. i'm falling apart, i really need a 24/ 7 yoga instructor by side.
on the good news my car is fixed and i got to work out today.
bad news.. i feel like i'm a million days away from my goal.
i'm bored with life. and my stomach aches tonight =/ i think i'm sick.. i feel sick. i'm clammy. shakey. and have a matalic taste in my mouth...also, my head hurts like a mo fo. that might explain my horrible mood..
on the good news my car is fixed and i got to work out today.
bad news.. i feel like i'm a million days away from my goal.
i'm bored with life. and my stomach aches tonight =/ i think i'm sick.. i feel sick. i'm clammy. shakey. and have a matalic taste in my mouth...also, my head hurts like a mo fo. that might explain my horrible mood..