Drop Your Fists, Dont Put Up A Fight...
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I cant believe school is exactly 15 days away. I fucking want to die. I really dont want to go back. Especially w/o my love, my everything, my world, my "love suicide", Heidi. I really just fucking dont want to be there if she isnt there. She is the only thing that motivated me to get up every morning, the last couple mouths of school. I really dont like anybody else except her at school. Except the occasional person.
Even though its(Post Secondary and it is) the best thing for Heidi to do, and the best thing for Heidi's mother's wallet, I just cant help still not wanting her to do it. No matter how much it helps everybody, and no matter how much it makes her parents happy, I just cant allow myself to say I want her to do it.
A situation you cant, and have no control over, just gives me the worst feeling in the world. It just sucks. Its so painful to just have the only thing to do, is to just drop your fist, & dont put a fight. And thats why I dont like it. Because its just one thing I can do nothing about.
I love you Heidi.
I cant believe school is exactly 15 days away. I fucking want to die. I really dont want to go back. Especially w/o my love, my everything, my world, my "love suicide", Heidi. I really just fucking dont want to be there if she isnt there. She is the only thing that motivated me to get up every morning, the last couple mouths of school. I really dont like anybody else except her at school. Except the occasional person.
Even though its(Post Secondary and it is) the best thing for Heidi to do, and the best thing for Heidi's mother's wallet, I just cant help still not wanting her to do it. No matter how much it helps everybody, and no matter how much it makes her parents happy, I just cant allow myself to say I want her to do it.
A situation you cant, and have no control over, just gives me the worst feeling in the world. It just sucks. Its so painful to just have the only thing to do, is to just drop your fist, & dont put a fight. And thats why I dont like it. Because its just one thing I can do nothing about.
I love you Heidi.