Relationship ramblings.........
Why is sex so important in a relationship? I know that it is one way to show Love, but it seems like it is taking over everything. Not everything has to be about sex, im sorry. Yeah sometimes it's nice, but so is just cuddleing, and falling asleep in each others arms and lying next to each other talking all night. Lately grant has seemed so distant, firday night i was laying next to him after he had got off work, and i had just had a really bad day at work, and he wanted a booty call, and i said no that i didnt want to i wanst in the mood, and he got all freekish on me. i said that i want to lay and talk, and he flipped out, " talk about what, what the hell do you wanna talk about, i think there is somethign your not telling me"? i just got up and walked out of the room. Then the asshole brings up the whole Andy thing, MY GOSH that was almost 2 years ago....(a huge lump sum of regret)!!! Idk maybe im just a little muture than most. I mean I love grant so much, but it seems like he don't trust me, saturday night Jr. called my phone and grant picked it up and told him that he couldnt call me anymore and all this other bullshit... Im sorry but that just pissed me off. That is so fucking disrespectful, i dont call his girl friends and talk shit dont get me wrong i have but there was perfect explantion behind it. It just gets to me, and i try not to let it. I will say one thing, i will not let nothign hold me back from succeeding in my life. I WILL beccome the person i intended to. With him or with out him. I just need him so much, i love him, its just dealing with bullshit, today i came home from church and was cleaning his room, and he called me after he gets off work, and goes so when i get home i get some booty right? i go uhh no ( because i am some kind of booty call) he then goes fine! im going to buds, ill be home later ( you know after he told me he would take me to get gloves for my prom and ball gowns for next weekend. fine fuck it next time im not gonna jump when he needs something, i cant stand waiting untill the last fucking minute for everything...FUCK...FUCK
Sorry that was a FUCK ventage LOL.....
Drop it like its hot....
i think im gonna go take a nap considering im not going to get teo spend the afternoon with grant.