fuck life
to say life sucks is an understatement. im going to be a senior, that blows my mind. i'd always talked about being a senior and how my brother would be a freshman and how weird that would be. and now, its happening. thats not the part that sucks. i mean yeah it sucks to have my brother in the same school as me but i can get over that. for the past, okay well its not even been 2 weeks yet, but the past week has seemed like a lifetime. its been home, work, home. thats it. not because i want it to be that way but because it has to be that way. and will be that way for a while. i left off on july 17. the 19th i got my haircut, 20th had my senior picture. 21st was my 17th birthday. my family came over at night along with greg, amanda, jill, kenny, and james. we chilled and stuff. alex stopped by, then tony, pots n bria. then the 22nd was my party. enough said. curtis and jill came :) mucho excited. but what pissed me off was people that talk shit about me, came. wtf is that. you and ur gay ass friends that hate me talk shit about me then you come to my party? and then leave after an hour, dont say hi, dont say happy birthday and take ur friends and exclude urselves from teh group? wtf is that? i get so mad about shit like that. whatever. 23rd i worked then went to the diner then kennys with amanda, kenny, jill, nicole, greg, jess, john, rachel, alicia, sean and basically the whitney whales plus some. yet agian that night i got in trouble with my parents for stuff so i was grounded till thursday. but did i listen when they said i was grounded? fuck no. wednesday my dad went to work and my mom had an interview in new york soooooo i left. they found out and now not only am i grounded for leaving but im banned from going anywhere because i went to see the one person they told me i cant see anymore. fuck that, if i wanna hang out with someone im gona find a way to hang out with them. they cant fucking tell me who i can and cant be with or hang out with. fuck you. ugh ive been locked up in this fucking house for so long i have a lot of anger. yeah and marissas party was the 30th but could i go? NOPE cause they are gay and i hate them. hopefully nothing big will go on or happen cause theres a 20% change i can go. and work is cutting back everyones hours so i only work 3 fucking days a week at 5 hours. THAT SUCKS. not only can i not get out of the house, but im not making half of what i used to make. ugh :( i need another job. the oc season 2 comes out aug 23. cool. its sad but i seriously cant wait for school to start. like seriously seriously. the quicker senior year is over, the quicker we can go to college and i can get away from this fucked up family i have. i hate living here. it sucks ass. and ontop of that my cousins are still here. they get to come visit us from georgia twice this summer, AND my parents payed for their plane tickets, but can i go down there ONCE? of course not. my 19 year old cousin OD-ed on crystal meth and is in 28 day rehab so my aunt has to take care of her kid. life just sucks for everyone around me. jdnsfkldnlkdfgnkfdjgnln. im done.