And I'm staring at the barrel of a 45.

[fall1ngxstar]

So yesterday felt long, I attempted a mid-day but I only found myself going to subway and then to Marching Band practice by 4. So I'm scarving down my turkey breast sub while Chris tells me his car trauma story. So sad.. So practice moves along pretty smoothly, I talked to keith about wanting a tattoo, except every place he asked about where I could put I kept saying...what if I get into theater? So then he was like, just get it on your ass. Then he told me a raunchy joke about this woman who got a tattoo of Jerry the mouse from Tom and Jerry. When she goes to show him the tattoo she says, "F*ck, I think my pussy ate it". Very nice. So once again it's another night with out drill. Go figure it shows up about a half hour after practice is done. Alex didn't even talk to me when he got there, hasn't even called me in a week or so. He said his phone died. blah blah! So afterwards a bunch of us went to see Garden State at the Ritz. Jill, Amy, Mark, Nick, Chris, Colleen, Alexis and some of her friends. It was interesting. I liked it alot. The character of Natalie Portman reminded me of myself. Strange, crazy, random spouts of dancing. I buried all my hampsters, fish, and guinea pigs too. I cried when he almost left her! I was like AH! Stupid head! This movie was more real the most love stories. The characters were more believable. Maybe because I saw myself as that person.

I couldn't sleep last night. My heart was racing so fast that it hurt. I'm paranoid about the first day of college. I think I even stopped to think of you might get married first..michelle or me. I snapped out of that one fast. I started to think how Christina was because her cousin Joe died. And then I started to think about her brother Brian and how she was trying to set me up with him. He's now going away to Florida State. We didn't know each other that well, but I started to grow pretty fond of him. I think I'll miss him.

In fact I know I will.