calling out
So yea since I have been parousing friends pages and desperately don't want to do work I will blog. Just read Aarons page on this fucking thing and I must say I know I was one of the kids getting pissed at him at the end of last year, as well as getting pissed at other friends that were leaving, I think thats just something I do, seeing it again this year. When people start leaving i start fights, in a lot of ways it's easier deal with hating someone rather then actually just growing apart sometimes. I guess I have just realized how fucked up I can be sometimes, I'm great at ending relationships/ friendships but suck at starting them. I have been kind of reminiscent of my earlier college years lately considering there ending soon and just looking back on what 4 years has got me. I was thinking about the people (mainly aaron & sara) who i do consider long term friends from college and am thankful for that and how our friendships began. I remember sitting in class with aaron everyday and never freaking talking to him or seeing him on the bus and giving the head nod of aknowledgement. Who ever knew a shit load of liquor could make good friends :D and the fact that in such a relatively short time we got so close was kind of a first for me. I guess the reason why I am writting this now is that I have a person who kind of reminds me of those days and is trying to be friends with me and me being me is trying my hardest not to break the boundaries, although I like them. The fact that this person has called me out on it a few times now has definitely made me realized it and kind of made me emo simply because I don't like being this way sometimes but it is the way I am. On the up side I think it prevents a lot of the bull shit fake friends that occur a lot. I dunno, I got issues. I think finals make me more nostalgic just because some of my favorite college memories were with the horsemen loosing our minds do to lack of sleep in the library listening to aarons gay ass music before getting smashed. When all is said and done i doubt if I will remember one class or one grade from college but I will remember these friendships and no matter what comes next it is something I am thankful for.