terrible feeling

[falin_rosepedal]

Thursdays practice was terrilbe I almost wnated to quit Cross. Well friday was ok.....Cross Country wasnt that bad it was ok. I think I did good. We did hill work-outs. I helped move to my dads new house...me and Jt worked on the comouters. I love the new house its so nice. My room is cool...when i was sleeping it was so dark I didnt know it was moening. Meliss and me worked in the clothes and then Jt helped morwwith Computers My dad got us all applebees and it was really good. My butt is killing me from my hill work outs. I talked to Robby and he and I are not friends period. He said I have changed sence him and robin have been going out. I am so upset...I have tried to talk to him but he wont even say hi to me. I wanted to invite him for my b-day party. I am so upset I hate losing friends its the worst feeling. I hate this so much...homecoming pics at my house I am afriad robin and robby wont come and robby will stay away from me and I will be left alone. I am so confussed and I wanna have a good b-day but thats the day Tyler died so I am afraid it wont be a happy day after all. I wanna hide away...till many things past over me. Jt is acting strange toward me again and I have told him and he says thats not true. Roman is really hot...(melissa and mallory..heha). I wanna talk 2 someone but I dont know who to talk to. I feel like when I tell soemone my problem all they say is its not ture ohh im sry and thats all. It doesnt help ...only a little. I am so lost and dont know how to feel. Byebye
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xoxo*~*me*~*xoxo
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p.s. Have u had the feeling where u cry for no reasson and then u cant see cause u are cring to hard....well thats now