december twenty-sixth, twelve-fourteen post meridian
okay so i am actually gunna write a journal entry now...
it is the day after christmas. i wanna write all about it but it doesnt really make sense to me still. i mean i had a horrible friday and saturday, i was with a respite provider in raleigh and she was really nice an all but i hate not being with family on christmas. then sunday i woke up and watched the woman and her daughter open presents and then we went to her extended family's house. they were really good people, very nice and warm and accpting. i enjoyed them, but i think i would have liked them a lot more if it wasnt christmas, ya know? what ever, so then i was on my way back to my house and my foster mother told me to see if i wanted to do anything before we got home so she didnt have to come back out to drop me off. i called lena and asked if she wanted to do anyhting and she said 'well, you can come to our latka party'. i dont think i have ever had more fun. we spun the dradle and ate borscht and i lit the menorah. a very good time. then i called sara and she came over and we three hung out and that was amazing. they dropped me off and then left. i was not only happy that i got to see sara, but that i got to see sara and lena, and i got them to finally talk, and see one another. see lena is going out of town today for like a week and then we go back to school. i know they will hang out later and i would hope that they would have even if i didnt ask her to come over tonight but i am sure glad i did. i ended the night checking email that i hadnt seen since friday afternoon and i was kinda shocked to find so many. so many beautiful people sent so many beautiful message of hope and love and joy for me on a potntially shitty christmas. also some sort of shocking messages of the quite unexpected variety which i didnt really know how to respond to. but i did the best i could and hope for the best. it will be a good thing, no doubt. christmas didnt feel anything like christmas, and it still doesnt feel like the holiday season but to know that i have suh amazing friends, truly my family, means more to me than blood ever will. remembering what this holiday is all about (our savior... and only hope for true joy, peace, love and fulfillment entering the world), is so much easier when you have happy, loving people who fill your heart and remind you that we were all made in the image of god. i fell asleep reading c.s. lewis and thinking happy thoughts. and that was only like ten hours ago, so needless to say, still a good day
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it is the day after christmas. i wanna write all about it but it doesnt really make sense to me still. i mean i had a horrible friday and saturday, i was with a respite provider in raleigh and she was really nice an all but i hate not being with family on christmas. then sunday i woke up and watched the woman and her daughter open presents and then we went to her extended family's house. they were really good people, very nice and warm and accpting. i enjoyed them, but i think i would have liked them a lot more if it wasnt christmas, ya know? what ever, so then i was on my way back to my house and my foster mother told me to see if i wanted to do anything before we got home so she didnt have to come back out to drop me off. i called lena and asked if she wanted to do anyhting and she said 'well, you can come to our latka party'. i dont think i have ever had more fun. we spun the dradle and ate borscht and i lit the menorah. a very good time. then i called sara and she came over and we three hung out and that was amazing. they dropped me off and then left. i was not only happy that i got to see sara, but that i got to see sara and lena, and i got them to finally talk, and see one another. see lena is going out of town today for like a week and then we go back to school. i know they will hang out later and i would hope that they would have even if i didnt ask her to come over tonight but i am sure glad i did. i ended the night checking email that i hadnt seen since friday afternoon and i was kinda shocked to find so many. so many beautiful people sent so many beautiful message of hope and love and joy for me on a potntially shitty christmas. also some sort of shocking messages of the quite unexpected variety which i didnt really know how to respond to. but i did the best i could and hope for the best. it will be a good thing, no doubt. christmas didnt feel anything like christmas, and it still doesnt feel like the holiday season but to know that i have suh amazing friends, truly my family, means more to me than blood ever will. remembering what this holiday is all about (our savior... and only hope for true joy, peace, love and fulfillment entering the world), is so much easier when you have happy, loving people who fill your heart and remind you that we were all made in the image of god. i fell asleep reading c.s. lewis and thinking happy thoughts. and that was only like ten hours ago, so needless to say, still a good day
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