i really wish i could spell words
so here i am in my luxurious 1200 square foot bathroom enjoying a bubblebath, a ribeye steak and a pilsner glass of bailey's.
the past few days have been confusing but not bad. it has been a stuggle to keep realizing that this is a time for me to be humble and bite my tongue no matter how much smarter and more clever i am than my parents. and it is really hard too because they are mad at me and want to like give me chores and stuff and my brother's not here (another story) and i have to do all the things that i usually could split with him. not to mention the fact that i am for some stupid reason off for these three days and going insane from being so idle. so i was just thinking that between being off all last week and half of this one, my paycheck is going to be not worth the cost of gas to go cash it. ummm yeah, i have been actually having an okay time. they (las tias) know that i had a momentary lapse and that that doesn't mean that i overnight became a horrible, completely iresponsible person. oh and i have been drug free for a whole week now. DARE right? that won't last though, so no one hold their breath cuz you might choke on the smoke being expelled from my throat. yeah so my brother is in nashville to visit my mom. idk how i feel abt that. i mean i am glad i am not there (sort of) but i still feel this pesky twinge of jealousy. and by small and pesky i mean i think about it like once a day which is like 10 times more than i think about my mom usually. i am a lot more jealous of a lot more things. i guess no worries, right? i shouldn't let it affect me especially now when i have more important shit to think about. like how i am gunna fit these two albums on one cd. or why i didn't make futures and what the fuck i am gunna do with/about field hockey. yeah so i am gunna go think about those things. and leave you to what it is you do.
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the past few days have been confusing but not bad. it has been a stuggle to keep realizing that this is a time for me to be humble and bite my tongue no matter how much smarter and more clever i am than my parents. and it is really hard too because they are mad at me and want to like give me chores and stuff and my brother's not here (another story) and i have to do all the things that i usually could split with him. not to mention the fact that i am for some stupid reason off for these three days and going insane from being so idle. so i was just thinking that between being off all last week and half of this one, my paycheck is going to be not worth the cost of gas to go cash it. ummm yeah, i have been actually having an okay time. they (las tias) know that i had a momentary lapse and that that doesn't mean that i overnight became a horrible, completely iresponsible person. oh and i have been drug free for a whole week now. DARE right? that won't last though, so no one hold their breath cuz you might choke on the smoke being expelled from my throat. yeah so my brother is in nashville to visit my mom. idk how i feel abt that. i mean i am glad i am not there (sort of) but i still feel this pesky twinge of jealousy. and by small and pesky i mean i think about it like once a day which is like 10 times more than i think about my mom usually. i am a lot more jealous of a lot more things. i guess no worries, right? i shouldn't let it affect me especially now when i have more important shit to think about. like how i am gunna fit these two albums on one cd. or why i didn't make futures and what the fuck i am gunna do with/about field hockey. yeah so i am gunna go think about those things. and leave you to what it is you do.
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