Breaking Bad fic: The Sins of the Father

[falafel_musings]

title. The Sins of the Father
fandom. Breaking Bad
characters. Walt and Jesse. Walt POV.
summary. Future fic set sometime after the Denny's teaser. Finding himself cornered by the DEA, Walt tries to find another perfect moment to die and some way for Jesse to live free. 
warnings. Heavy angst, hints of violence. 
disclaimer. BrBa is not mine and I

Comments

[hanfastolfe]

Heyyyyyyy! :D \o/

Couple quick notes - you typoed the link to my handle and you left a wording unchanged on "exact number minutes he had left to save Jesse". :)

(You can screen this afterwards)

[falafel_musings]

Thanks again han! I did notice that there was some sort of problem with your username last night when I posted but LJ was running sooo sloooowly I eventually gave up trying to fix it. I think I've got it sorted now. Thanks for spotting that typo too!

[selenak]

That's absolutely heartbreaking, and I can so see it happening. (Though I hope it won't!) Walt wanting to go out in a blaze of glory, by cop or by Jesse if needs be, Jesse as the one capable of seeing the cops as people, not props to Walt's drama, and not wanting them dead... and above all, Walt telling Jesse the truth not out of sadism or a need to confess but as one more act of manipulation to save Jesse's life, with it promptly backfiring into Jesse then being ready to die. Ouch, ouch, ouch. But really well written.

[falafel_musings]

I hope this scenario won't happen either! I often write these kind of dark depressing fics for favourite shows of mine that are coming to an end soon - just as a way of bracing myself in case the worst happens! I think BrBa could possibly end like a Shakespearian tragedy with many characters dying (including Walt and Jesse) or being scarred for life. But I still hope there will be a slight silver lining to the real conclusion.

I'm pleased you felt this was in character though. It's so sad really; one of Walt's most redeeming qualities is that he will risk his own life to save Jesse, yet at the same time Walt has damaged Jesse so badly that these days he no longer cares if he lives or dies. For Jesse's sake I have to hope he doesn't learn the whole truth because I do fear it could drive him to suicide.

I love your icon, btw!

[pgilmour]

Well done! I liked that you had in Walt's plan that Jesse's new identity would make him Walt's son. I had actually thought of that myself in all my imaginings of how this would end. This only makes me long for July even more though! I'm never going to make it! I keep wondering how they are going to get from Point A - Walt and family at his house with Hank in the bathroom to Point B - Walt 9 months or so later at Dennys. I mean he's not wearing his ring so Skyler must not be with him, which indicates to me that he must've gone on the run and is not under Witness Protection or something, because you'd think if he'd chosen that route he'd have his family with him. Perhaps Skyler rolled on him to protect herself and the kids and maybe went into witness protection with them? That would make more sense than Jesse rolling on him since she wouldn't want to have the kids taken away from her. So, if he's back to protect someone, who would it be? I like the idea of Jesse being hostage cook (as in your story), but I imagine they would've taken

[falafel_musings]

Brain twins indeed! Yes, I needed to find some way for Walt to formally adopt Jesse. :D

I mean he's not wearing his ring so Skyler must not be with him, which indicates to me that he must've gone on the run and is not under Witness Protection or something

This fic did originally include several references to Skyler and Walt's kids but my beta (wisely) suggested I took them out because I was going off on a tangent. But yeah, I imagined that they would be in witness protection during the events of this fic. Either that or Skyler would be in jail and the kids would be back with the Schraders.

I like the idea of Jesse being hostage cook (as in your story), but I imagine they would've taken him sooner, so why wait so long to go back and get him? Plus, they're based in Phoenix, so why ABQ? Ha! I've thought about these factors too. I also think if they have Declan cook-napping Jesse it'll be immediately after Walt's disappearance and that they would probably smuggle him out to a secret superlab in Phoenix. So my new theory for the

[pgilmour]

It's so sad really; one of Walt's most redeeming qualities is that he will risk his own life to save Jesse, yet at the same time Walt has damaged Jesse so badly that these days he no longer cares if he lives or dies.Ok, so I'm responding to your comment to someone else - I think for Walt to do what he did to Jesse at the end of S4, he had to consciously put emotional distance between himself and Jesse. As he said “Secrets build barriers between people”. And I really got the feeling in S5 that he was going through the motions of caring about Jesse, without really caring. That being said, I think he does care very much, but he kind of cut off communication with the part of his brain that tells him he cares. Does that make any sense? BC said something about in the last episode having a hard time figuring out what Walt was feeling and then realizing that Walt has buried all his emotions so deeply that he doesn’t even know what he feels. But that little smile he gets when he sees Jesse that last time was affectionate, so somewhere down

[falafel_musings]

Yay, you got your italics coding working! :D If LJ didn't suck so much it'd be nice if they just added a damn italics option to comment posting.

I think Walt had very passionate love/hate feelings towards Jesse at the end of S4. One moment he's yelling at Jesse to go get himself killed in Mexico, then he is yelling at Tyrus that he'll never cook again if anything has happened to Jesse in Mexico. I think Walt feels possessive of Jesse more so than loving or hating. It's the same with Skyler. He's cruel and abusive to her, yet he still won't let her go.

I hope it doesn’t turn into the Hank vs. Walt show Well S4 was the Walt vs Gus show and Jesse still had a pivotal role to play in that battle. Usually when it's Walt Vs Anyone (Mike, Tuco, etc) Jesse is heavily involved in their conflict. Hank will surely link Jesse to Walt. He also knows Jesse has links with Saul, Badger, Tuco, etc. I think Hank is going to realise Jesse is a key player in the Heisenberg case. And yes, I hope we'll get that sort of Jesse/Skyler solidarity too

[frenchani]

You're killing me here! This is so them!

PS: LJ is working for me again AT LAST so I can leave a comment!

[falafel_musings]

Thank you! Glad you liked it!

PS: God, tell me about it. I barely managed to post this last night before LJ packed up and died on me again. Now I can finally post it at the BB-art community.

[diamondtopaz]

Wow, freaky. I had almost this exact same idea for how the series would end, and I was gonna write it down eventually myself, but you executed it so well here there's barely a point. I could totally see it happening this way. The last half of Season 5 is bound to be about Heisenburg's decline and undoing. Walt is doomed to die by cancer, or else to get caught by Hank...neither of which he would want, so he would provoke Jesse into attacking him by telling him the truth about Jane and Brock, just so Walt could end it on his terms.
I know not everybody agrees with me on this, but I actually WANT Jesse to kill Walt in the end. He has suffered for every decision Walt has made, and I want nothing more than to see him break free.
Nice job!

[falafel_musings]

I think Vince Gilligan put the idea in my head since he said in his 'End Times' commentary that even if Walt's manipulation had failed, Walt would prefer Jesse killing him to Gus or one of Gus's goons killing him. I think it all comes down to Walt's need to have control. Walt can't escape death but he can control how he dies and suicide-by-Jesse allows him to remain the master and manipulator.

I guess this is why I don't want Jesse to kill Walt, certainly not if he is just being used as a puppet again. Personally I don't think killing Walt would bring Jesse any freedom or redemption. Jesse left the meth business because all the killing got too much for him. I like the idea of Jesse bringing about Walt's downfall but I hope it won't come down to Jesse killing Walt (or Walt killing Jesse either).

Thanks so much for reading. Great icon btw. :D

[diamondtopaz]

Thanks, it's my boyfriend's and my Halloween costumes. :)

I dunno, it's just every time Walt makes a decision, it's Jesse who reaps the consequences. (Ex: Walt says "We need to expand," Jesse says it's a bad idea, but goes along with it. One of Jesse's best friends dies as a result, and all Walt can do is shrug and say "Which one was Combo, again?") I want to see him break away from that cycle in the end.

[falafel_musings]

You both look awesome! I love that you went as OD'd Jane.

I'd like Jesse to be free of that cycle too, but I fear that Jesse is too damaged for a happy ending. I mean, Jesse has already broken away from Walt but he's still living a lonely aimless life. Maybe I'm just too emotionally attached to the relationship? I hope it doesn't all end in hate and killing! *even though...I just wrote it that way*