Fukt with a t for totally fukt
So, yes I posted. Howz that? a tad strange really.
It's been that long I dunno what's new, well lets start with my business. Nanoweb, started it when I finished school, well it's going slowly averaging a job a week...better pick up soon or I’ll be driving from a gutter to the office each day. If you got computer problems, then like look at my website and send me a email from the contact page, www.nanoweb.net.au .
Boys, well, *laugh* they certainly do come and go:
Boy number 1: aka pool boy, went to the pool in Ringwood with him one day (which is a surprising nice pool) and he's nice, and cute, and around my age, but a newbie (just came out, never had a boyfriend before, probably a virgin). So like I tell him I think he's cool and I would like to get to know him, he *kindly* says he thinks the same. A month passes, I do things like see him walking on the side of the road and swerve into a side street so he doesn't see me coz I dun wanna see him after nothing happened between us, and generally avoid him. Well so he tells me online tonight that he has a boyfriend, 23 year old from Gook Waverley..YAY, good for him, at least I now know where I stand.
Boy number 2: aka dirty camp Frankston queen boy. Not elaborating.
Boy number 3: aka I Love You after the first time I see you topless and I'm possibly intellectually challenged boy. He was weird. Very weird. He told me he loved me the first time i met him, that was the last time I saw him.
Boy number 4: aka Older boy mark IV. He's from Brighton, runs his own business, very active, looks after himself, beautiful body, beautiful mind. We really hit it off, he's good in the sack, but it's more than that. He's just come out of a two year relationship so we are taking things slow, which I think is good, really good, coz you get to know them really really well. He has no flaws. He is just really busy...like I havn't seen him for 5 days busy, and it annoys me *chews the desk* because I really want to get to know him, really well. So many 'really's. But like seriously. I thought he was 24 he seriously looks and acts it, but I was 13 years off, and no, he isn't 11. I don't have a problem with it, I mean come on, since when don't I like a bit of mature cheese, but he has expressed his concern about what others might think if we became an official item. Shit. I think I just found a flaw.
End boys.
Friends:
I love my Boobz, and no i didn't get implants, that's next month. Big girl now, like a legal mole, disappointing that her other 'friends' don't care enough to go out with her on her birthday. Love my rox n doug too, miss hanging out with you cunts, like a cunt load...Happy Birfday my dear Boobz, smile and life will be good. Here’s to many free late nights at Crown, I had an awesome time. Look forward to chillin with u kids on Saturday too.
Hi banana, stop being so like busy, but ur like a bum, yet always busy, meh, call me.
LOL, i gots two friends, awesome. Oh, anyone i missed, your boring, call me.
Family:
Mum's upset, disappointed and in tears. And it's not her boyfriend causing it this time. My sister eloped on Monday, Valentines Day. Called to tell me on Tuesday, she tells me, theres a silence, I ask where, she says a clifftop in Mornington, more silence, i say thanx for calling and telling me, she says don't tell mum yet i want her to hear it from me, ok bye. It's her life, she can fuck it up as much as she wants, but what the fuck right does she have to tell everyone that she wants to get married after the baby is born, not get married just for the baby, make it a big family thing, and then go do exactly the opposite crushing loved ones. Mum never got invited to her Deb, and now looks like she'll never get to goto her wedding either. I'm dissappointed too. I mean I technically have three other siblings, but I never knew them when I was younger, Michelle was over every second weekend, I grew up with her, and although she is my half sister, i never call her that. She is the only immediate family I have in this state except Mum, and now that this has happened it's kinda like, I only got Mum. Oh, the big deal being her partner hates Mum, has no time for me coz i'm a poof and is generally an arsehole to us anytime we want something to do with Michelle. Mum's not even allowed to go over to see her daughter if he's home all over an incident that was his fault to begin with. Efff yew kay tee. (that's not F U Katie).
My lil cousins are all growing up! My lil boy Scott, from my aunt in Mornington who was a second mum to me when i was younger, has just started primary school and he looks so cute in his uniform! He loves his cousin Christopher which is so awesome! My big boy Nathan, from my aunt in Pakenham, has just started high school at paky high so i'm giving him tips and tricks on how to push certain teachers buttons and how to get out of trouble. I bought him whiteout, a permanent marker and some chewing gum to take to school. (For all those that didn't goto paky high these are all banned substances at the 'institution'. All i'm missing out on is some alcohol, smokes, a lighter and a steel ruler.)
My Dad and Step Mum moved to Mt. Isa (Far north central Queensland, 10 hours drive from townsville) a few months ago and i'm missing my step mum a fair bit. They are flying me up there in the next few months. But poor Ayi, starts out in Manilla, Philipines, a big city, moves to Melbourne, smaller city, lives in Pakenham, shit town but only 45 minutes from Melbourne, and is then forced to move to, literally, the middle of nowhere and an isolated mining town...I honestly wonder how she is handling it...I'd go insane...
end family
Assorted other gossip and bullshit:
Sylvester is trying to sleep but I dun think the tapping on my keyboard is aiding in that. He's been here for over a month now, and he jumps on the side of the cage everytime i go near it, he seems happy...i should remember to feed him thought, he loves me more then.
I start uni soon. Batchelor of Computing (Monash, Caulfield). Drove down Glenferrie road the other day and started to cry, turned down burwood rd and started to cry more. The best two years of my life were spent of Glenferrie Road, outside the gates on William Street, Glenferrie Station, and occasionally in a classroom. I miss that so much. What I don't miss is seeing James everyday, looking for parking, over-opinionated teachers with red streaks in their hair and brown lipstick, but that aside the people i met changed my life forever, and friendships are windling away as we go down our different paths in life. I see one person everyday, my business partner Rob. Drew moved to Tasmania so Boobz told me. I've seen Boobz once since school finished. Little Sarah, I Love You, I miss you, i wanna see you. and assorted other peeps i can't think of now, I want us all to spark up a smoke, bitch about Flack, lend a stoner some scissors, hide the butts from Foggers, pick on a dirty hippy, talk about the weekend, laugh about lithium and Bronwen, and wall the Swinbourne walk to the station just one more time together. Just one more time.
I miss you guys, I love you guys.
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