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there is a peice missing right now. i am so apathetic and i am void of emotions. my heart can't keep up with my mind and my emotions don't match with reasoning. and i don't have anybody to talk to for fear of judgement and loss. i live a lie and look like somebody who really isn't.
and i know this is vague but thats the point. i could say what i really feel but it don't want to admit it to myself or others. so i will pretent it's not there.
i want so badly to feel safe with being alone.
i wish i could fully express the range of my emotions. maybe one of these days i will tell all and not be afraid.
we all are just faking happy sometimes