Fayetteville and its lack of interesting people
There are 300 million people in the United States and over 6 billion worldwide, yet I'm often left feeling completely alone.
Of course out of the 300 million people there are millions too old or young, too sick, too unlike me; but surely there are atleast hundreds of thousands of people willing to venture outside their comfortable houses for an adventure with me.
The United States culture values private time and quiet far more than I like.
I don't know if the American lifestyle is right for me. I don't like the suburban sprawl found in our cities because of its bland, cookie-cutteresque look. Nor do I look the materialism and shallowness of the American culture.
I'm starting to realize how badly the "real world" really sucks. Work all day, go on a couple small vacations every year (if you can even get the time off), shop at discount bulk stores to feed your selfish children, blah blah blah.
But surely life doesn't have to be like that.
I hope to have a competitive job that allows me to travel and accomplish great things. Obviously a large income would be a plus, but if it is a job I love doing and could do for a long time, then a lot of money is not important.
I want to have friends in every city and country so no matter where I go open arms and a party are waiting for me.
Of course I want to always have something to fall back on, i.e. husband, but I don't think I have the abilities to always do right for him and be there for him.
I've been thinking about motherhood a lot lately and I just don't see it happening, and if, when I'm 40, I really feel the need to mother a child, adoption is the absolute only way.
Basically my point is that I hate being alone and I wish life was more like the movies where friends are always together and good times are always had.
Of course out of the 300 million people there are millions too old or young, too sick, too unlike me; but surely there are atleast hundreds of thousands of people willing to venture outside their comfortable houses for an adventure with me.
The United States culture values private time and quiet far more than I like.
I don't know if the American lifestyle is right for me. I don't like the suburban sprawl found in our cities because of its bland, cookie-cutteresque look. Nor do I look the materialism and shallowness of the American culture.
I'm starting to realize how badly the "real world" really sucks. Work all day, go on a couple small vacations every year (if you can even get the time off), shop at discount bulk stores to feed your selfish children, blah blah blah.
But surely life doesn't have to be like that.
I hope to have a competitive job that allows me to travel and accomplish great things. Obviously a large income would be a plus, but if it is a job I love doing and could do for a long time, then a lot of money is not important.
I want to have friends in every city and country so no matter where I go open arms and a party are waiting for me.
Of course I want to always have something to fall back on, i.e. husband, but I don't think I have the abilities to always do right for him and be there for him.
I've been thinking about motherhood a lot lately and I just don't see it happening, and if, when I'm 40, I really feel the need to mother a child, adoption is the absolute only way.
Basically my point is that I hate being alone and I wish life was more like the movies where friends are always together and good times are always had.