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For what its worth, I really try. I've never been particularly amazing at anything, but I really put forth all of me into making an effort. There are a few people that I really do this for. Its not so much for me...its more to prove myself to other people. Whether it be positive or negative.
One of those people are very sick. I learned this on saturday after listening to a voicemail after work. Your heart will never sink more than finding out one of the few people that had faith in you, one of the only people that has ever backed you, is going under the knife again and might not make it. Its not like a song where cancer is a metaphor. Its a real eat your insides cancer.
I really have nothing to say about it. I spent hours as a wreck before I realize there's nothing I can do. I'm trying to stay busy and keep my mind off it, but its hard. I'm trying to stay positive, but its damn near impossible. I finally don't mind my phone bill being that high.
I've been missing a few times, in particular I hope 2 girls forgive me, but all I have been doing is working, skateboarding, and drawing. I guess right now its what I need, because crying won't get me anywhere.
I've come this far, and quitting now would upset the one person who needs me to succeed most.
On more positive notes...songs I've been listening to rise against, four year strong, modern life is war, death before dishonor, newfound glory, ad blink 182. I'm not sure why.
Superbad is awesome.
One of those people are very sick. I learned this on saturday after listening to a voicemail after work. Your heart will never sink more than finding out one of the few people that had faith in you, one of the only people that has ever backed you, is going under the knife again and might not make it. Its not like a song where cancer is a metaphor. Its a real eat your insides cancer.
I really have nothing to say about it. I spent hours as a wreck before I realize there's nothing I can do. I'm trying to stay busy and keep my mind off it, but its hard. I'm trying to stay positive, but its damn near impossible. I finally don't mind my phone bill being that high.
I've been missing a few times, in particular I hope 2 girls forgive me, but all I have been doing is working, skateboarding, and drawing. I guess right now its what I need, because crying won't get me anywhere.
I've come this far, and quitting now would upset the one person who needs me to succeed most.
On more positive notes...songs I've been listening to rise against, four year strong, modern life is war, death before dishonor, newfound glory, ad blink 182. I'm not sure why.
Superbad is awesome.