so im supposed to be showering right now
so i realized that i hold way too many grudges
-->and i really don't think God wants me to do that...
i mean really...he forgives these people for freakin NAILING him to a cross,
and i can't forgive and forget things that seem so small compared to that.
i'm actually quite lame.
and i honestly mean that.
i'm not saying it as a joke.
i need to learn to be nicer.
sigh.
and just forget the past because
it wont ever come back
and make me feel the same
ever.
so i think i'm just gonna enjoy the present.
life as it is.
in it's most beautiful and simplest form.
^wow that was a pretty hardcore sentence.
anyways, if i've ever hurt your feelings...
i am sorry.
i'm just...
lame.
and yes.
i'm sorry.
really.
i am.
i've pretty much hurt everyone and anyone in my life.
theres something completely wrong with that.
sigh.
i need to think more often.
not that i dont enough. cause i ponder enough as it is.
i miss my mom. i wish she'd come home already. i'm grateful i have her. if i didnt have her, i'm really not sure what i would do. and i'm sad for those who dont get a chance to get loved in the way only a mother could love you...speaking for a certain someone...sigh. i think i have way too much free time on my hands.
okay sandi i'll shower now...thanks for being my best friend.
i love you to the moon and back. =)
k seriously im done.
my butt hurts.
-->and i really don't think God wants me to do that...
i mean really...he forgives these people for freakin NAILING him to a cross,
and i can't forgive and forget things that seem so small compared to that.
i'm actually quite lame.
and i honestly mean that.
i'm not saying it as a joke.
i need to learn to be nicer.
sigh.
and just forget the past because
it wont ever come back
and make me feel the same
ever.
so i think i'm just gonna enjoy the present.
life as it is.
in it's most beautiful and simplest form.
^wow that was a pretty hardcore sentence.
anyways, if i've ever hurt your feelings...
i am sorry.
i'm just...
lame.
and yes.
i'm sorry.
really.
i am.
i've pretty much hurt everyone and anyone in my life.
theres something completely wrong with that.
sigh.
i need to think more often.
not that i dont enough. cause i ponder enough as it is.
i miss my mom. i wish she'd come home already. i'm grateful i have her. if i didnt have her, i'm really not sure what i would do. and i'm sad for those who dont get a chance to get loved in the way only a mother could love you...speaking for a certain someone...sigh. i think i have way too much free time on my hands.
okay sandi i'll shower now...thanks for being my best friend.
i love you to the moon and back. =)
k seriously im done.
my butt hurts.