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November 8 was my last post and it's May 21...we'll just go w/ that's a LONG!!!! time.
I can't believe i totally missed Fiddler w/ this.
---and Prom
---and my junior year.
But i did so blah.
boys suck. let me rephrase that: any boy that can, of their own free will, like me that doesn't like me. those boys suck.
i need a freaking job. I've applied EVERYWHERE (well obviously not, i'm exaggerating--using hyperbole) and no one's responded. and its getting closer and closer to summer which means my window of opportunity is getting smaller and smaller. vicky and i are planning on working together (if we can ever find jobs). that was just a fun fact. like, that sentence would be an example in a grammar book of a paragraph w/ a random sentence that needs to be taken out. but that's how my thought process is working out right now so there.
my dad and i are ALWAYS fighting. today, we fought for like 10 minutes before i realized we had the same opinion!!! We were both saying the SAME THING!!! like, what the hell?!? i really can't stand him sometimes. but recently, sometimes have been closer and closer together so that its almost all the time.
I had a realllllly good time at prom, but whenever i'm asked about it, i forget about the good time i had and i think about the suckiness that has followed. I am pretty much no longer friends w/ my prom date. and i have NO idea why. he just...stopped talking to me. plus, at prom, it took him pretty much an entire hour to get him to come dance. and i really liked him...but thinking back on it, i really only like him as friend. let's put that in past tense, though, for how can one like a person as a friend if THEY DON'T TALK TO YOU AS A FRIEND AT ALL ANYMORE?!?! it just really pushes my buttons, because i loved hanging out w/ him and his family. but i'm just going to put it past me. i'm going to try, at least.
It's gotten to the point where i can't really stand anyone anymore. And sometimes its not even that, i'm just sick of seeing the same people day after day after day.
I have so much that i want to do this summer that (a) i'm probably not going to get to do it all and (b) it's going to go by REALLY quickly. Plus i have stuff that i HAVE to do: get a job, do all my ap summer work (3 classes), teach myself spanish 4 b/c my teacher did not do so this year, make enough money to get a car, find a college to go to, do the common application. want to do: go to hampton beach mucho, visit ashley at her camp, live at vicky's house, whatever else we can come up w/, find that summer fling ;-).
At the beginning/middle of the school year i thought i was going to be really sad about the seniors graduating. But now i'm not ,and that's what makes me sad. I feel close to like, one senior now. and i used to feel close to quite a few. but i guess that's just the way the cookie crumbles.
i can't believe that in 16 days, i'm going to be a senior. it's been 5 years and it feels like 1. but recently my friends and i have been thinking nostalgically and are like "wow, look at how old the boys look now, 5 years later," "when i was in 7th grade, all the seniors were SO tall, and now i'm goign to be a senior...and i'm still pretty short."
To keep w/ the nostalgic mood (ever since point 7): it's very depressing to realize we're going to be the oldest. there's no one to look up to, no "older boys" to have crushes on, no one to tell us what to do...we're the bosses now. and i think we're going to rock it. but i was looking at some sr. prom pictures earlier and i got sad for MY senior prom...which is a year away. oh geez..
I just realized point 9 was really a continuation of point 8.
Academia notes: Mrs. Bahr Casey doesn't hate me anymore!!! Ever since i got a 4 on her final, she's been nice to me. it's pretty great. but i don't think i did so hot on my ap test... i think i got too confident w/ the final. we'll see...if i get a bad score on my birthday, i will flip. actually, i'll probs just be really depressed, which is not good, considering it'll be my birthday. I got my ACT scores back: 27. but i could really care less about them. like, i don't even know if that's good, bad, avg, etc. i'm waiting to take and then get my sat scores back. i really want to get my SAT II scores back, b/c i think i dominated. :-)
OK so there's the much-awaited, much-anticipated, and much-needed update.
One more thing: i wrote a pro-gay marriage research/term paper for english. it totally bashes the catholic church. let's just put it this way: mr. paul would call me a heathen, and if the superintendent of the diocese happens to hear it...um, don't want to think about it. k so, peace out girlscout. :-)