creation versus imitation
So I have been working on my "movie" for a couple hours now and I seem to have reached a point where I'm stuck. There's a big knot and I know how to undo it but I'm not quite sure how to work up to it. I am VERY aware that it sucks and that I am being so pretentious when refering to it as a movie, but it's all a big joke anyways. Whatever, I am just having fun writing that's all there is to it. I was just thinking about how people dream their life or like are capable of coming up with things in complete opposition with their actual routine, and I wanted to write something about it, I guess. Like the woman who wrote Frankeinstein shocked her whole neighborhood when the book was released cause everyone thought she was leading a normal life and was not able to have such awful thoughts, and the auhor who wrote Wuthering Heights had never been good at relationships, she was so aloof as a rule and yet she wrote one of the most beautiful and complicated love stories ever. So I wanted to write something about that, and schyzophrenia which I think is implied in all of this, as well as the fact that logic depends from the point of view that one has and is not the same for everyone. Arguu I am getting tangled into my own explanation but yeah, I guess that's what I was thinking about when I wrote my stupid rough draft of a rough draft of a rough draft of a movie. Babe I have been trying to call you for awhile and it seems that even with the phone stuck down your ear you can't hear it ring... I miss you so fucking bad. I love you so much it hurts sometimes, in times like right now.