"the days change to night, change in an instant"

[fakefighter]

i have all but abandoned the public face of the internet.
sorry!

i just went back and read some people's eljays direct because i hadn't checked my friends page in who knows how long. i barely even check my hotmail account. i like the feeling of not relying on the internet as much as i used to.

i feel like life lately is strange. i feel like i am having an internal struggle of some great complexity, and sometimes the struggle feels like a rupture of who i thought i was. but being rattled like this doesn't really depress me, it is sort of thrilling to know that i still have the capacity for self-reflection and growth. and i also feel like i am smart enough and tough enough and a good enough person to get through it successfully.

i like lily allen. do you like lily allen?

i am moving into a new office tomorrow, and i have a bit of seperation anxiety. i will miss, miss, miss, miss, miss the place i'm at now and the people i am near. i will still be so close, but it won't be the same. still, it will be cool in it's own way (fancy new furniture, a cottage-like window near the door, and clean walls ripe for decorations, and ever so close to The Books).

this is a really weird entry, i'm not very focused, i want to go home!