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TT and Laura have been going out for almost 3 years officially, over 4 years since they became friends. Whenever I look at them I love what they have. The idea of having a stable relationship with somebody just feels so safe. The line that seperates where they are dating and friends isn't visible anymore, and I love that about them. They are as much in love as they are best friends with eachother. That's just the most beautiful thing to me.
I have gone out with two guys since Brad and I didn't appreciate how nice it is to have a stable relationship with somebody until after we broke up. I do love dustin, its just so butterfly feeling-y but its still insecure and I guess I'm really not used to that. Loving somebody after many years is so much more deep and meaningful, and we all know that. I just want tt and laura to really grasp that, because I don't think they've dated anybody before eachother or even kissed anyone before they met. Sometimes during the course of those 3 years I kinda wanted to feel like I did when I first met brad. And now that I'm at that point again where things feel lovey dovey. But now I know that I prefer the deeper more meaningful long term type of love. Most people these days don't prefer/enjoy that kind of love, but I do. The one that will always be there. I miss KNOWING that there will always be a person you can come to and just be by your side where you don't have to worry about anything. Its just gonna take a while for that to happen again, of course. Whoever its with. (I'll make a good 3rd wife as dustin would say haha, jk-ing)
Laura was baptized on last saturday. TT baptised her. He's gonna do one semester of byu and then go on his mission. So that's 2 and a half years, and if they're meant to be then it'll work. I really hope so. I do love laura like a sister recently in the past year. Jennifer feels the same way. I never doubted Laura even through all the badness that went on during the summer. She's a good person, I really hope they get married. I can't immagine him with anybody else but her, it wouldn't look right. Or laura with another guy. I guess she already is pretty much part of our family since we've known her for so long. She eats dinner with us every sunday cause she comes to church with us, and everybody at our church knows her. It would be cool if her family could join the church too.
I have gone out with two guys since Brad and I didn't appreciate how nice it is to have a stable relationship with somebody until after we broke up. I do love dustin, its just so butterfly feeling-y but its still insecure and I guess I'm really not used to that. Loving somebody after many years is so much more deep and meaningful, and we all know that. I just want tt and laura to really grasp that, because I don't think they've dated anybody before eachother or even kissed anyone before they met. Sometimes during the course of those 3 years I kinda wanted to feel like I did when I first met brad. And now that I'm at that point again where things feel lovey dovey. But now I know that I prefer the deeper more meaningful long term type of love. Most people these days don't prefer/enjoy that kind of love, but I do. The one that will always be there. I miss KNOWING that there will always be a person you can come to and just be by your side where you don't have to worry about anything. Its just gonna take a while for that to happen again, of course. Whoever its with. (I'll make a good 3rd wife as dustin would say haha, jk-ing)
Laura was baptized on last saturday. TT baptised her. He's gonna do one semester of byu and then go on his mission. So that's 2 and a half years, and if they're meant to be then it'll work. I really hope so. I do love laura like a sister recently in the past year. Jennifer feels the same way. I never doubted Laura even through all the badness that went on during the summer. She's a good person, I really hope they get married. I can't immagine him with anybody else but her, it wouldn't look right. Or laura with another guy. I guess she already is pretty much part of our family since we've known her for so long. She eats dinner with us every sunday cause she comes to church with us, and everybody at our church knows her. It would be cool if her family could join the church too.