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It isn't fair, Dustin said we can't hang out mondays and wednesdays at all because he has homework to do, which is understandable, but the thing is we can't hang out tuesdays, thursdays, fridays, saturdays, or sundays... ok. Yeah monday, its about it.... for 2.5 hours during math class... we'll miss eachother so bad that its gonna end up being one heck of a romantic math class, good thing we're in the back of the room hah. no jk. it really sucks. I don't think he's doing it on purpose but I do wonder though if he's intentionaly trying not to fall too hard for me since I'm gonna be leaving in a month and a half. I kinda feel that way too I guess. But when you like someone they're like a drug. My psych teacher said that being in love runs the same chemicals around in your head as when you are doing drugs. Its true though, when you aren't seeing that person you are going through withdrawl and you have those same symptoms as needing a drug. And when you're not with that person all you think about is them and the world is just kinda, there. Yeah we've all been there.
I got my BYU-I course catelogue in the mail! Its exciting.
I also found out today that I will not be graduating with my AA, its ok thouhg, it just makes me mad that I'm just one credit short because my aeroics teacher refuses to cut me some slack and is giving me an F. Well its really my fault but fine. I don't care. More money for me, as in I just told Liz that I can start working thursdays now in replacement of my aerobics class that would otherwise be in dead center of the work day. And besides Maria told me to since I'm her bitch haha.
I also have a cold. Its one of the better ones I've had, it's just a lot of sneezing, every 30 seconds, I'm not kidding. and its driving me insane.
I am getting over brad still actually believe it or not. 3 years was really long. Dustin's getting over his ex, and she was 14, I have no room though, me being 16 and brad 21, lol. In both of our situations we were all forced to break up. She moved to texas, and well, if you know my story, its probably far more tragic but I don't know the full part of his story.
Anyway, I think I'm something good for him. I know he needs somebody to be there for him and I can surely do that. I just feel bad that we've got a time limit.
I'm not gonna be gone forever though. I'm not moving, I'm just going to college. 4 months isn't that long. If he wants to wait for me after that I'll have 8 months back home that I won't be in college, because I have the summer at home for online courses and the fall I have off (because I'm in the winter/summer track) We will have 8 months. But we'll see.
I think we're fine the way we are though. He told me he's not really looking for a permanent relationship for once and neither am I so its good timing. Although, there is one problem- I've become hooked! I didn't wanna fall so hard but, ok. I dunno if he has become hooked on me or not.
I think I worry myself too much ovr the stupidest things. I'm always afraid that I will do/did something that turns the guy I like off. Like yesterday I did something and I didn't mean to and I didn't get a chance to explain myself, so I'm afraid I've made him think differently of me. But whatever. I doubt it. I bet he won't even know what I'm talking about if I mention it to him.
I got my BYU-I course catelogue in the mail! Its exciting.
I also found out today that I will not be graduating with my AA, its ok thouhg, it just makes me mad that I'm just one credit short because my aeroics teacher refuses to cut me some slack and is giving me an F. Well its really my fault but fine. I don't care. More money for me, as in I just told Liz that I can start working thursdays now in replacement of my aerobics class that would otherwise be in dead center of the work day. And besides Maria told me to since I'm her bitch haha.
I also have a cold. Its one of the better ones I've had, it's just a lot of sneezing, every 30 seconds, I'm not kidding. and its driving me insane.
I am getting over brad still actually believe it or not. 3 years was really long. Dustin's getting over his ex, and she was 14, I have no room though, me being 16 and brad 21, lol. In both of our situations we were all forced to break up. She moved to texas, and well, if you know my story, its probably far more tragic but I don't know the full part of his story.
Anyway, I think I'm something good for him. I know he needs somebody to be there for him and I can surely do that. I just feel bad that we've got a time limit.
I'm not gonna be gone forever though. I'm not moving, I'm just going to college. 4 months isn't that long. If he wants to wait for me after that I'll have 8 months back home that I won't be in college, because I have the summer at home for online courses and the fall I have off (because I'm in the winter/summer track) We will have 8 months. But we'll see.
I think we're fine the way we are though. He told me he's not really looking for a permanent relationship for once and neither am I so its good timing. Although, there is one problem- I've become hooked! I didn't wanna fall so hard but, ok. I dunno if he has become hooked on me or not.
I think I worry myself too much ovr the stupidest things. I'm always afraid that I will do/did something that turns the guy I like off. Like yesterday I did something and I didn't mean to and I didn't get a chance to explain myself, so I'm afraid I've made him think differently of me. But whatever. I doubt it. I bet he won't even know what I'm talking about if I mention it to him.