Falling apart.
I really hate distance. I hate falling apart; away. I don't really understand how this works. How someone can come into your life and just completely change everything & once they're gone you don't really know who they are anymore; its like you never knew them. I get how plans change but I wish friendships wouldn't drift apart.
All our paths split, some have drifted away, some I seldom even remember and some who followed me through my teenage years and have become so close to me, they feel like my second skin. What happened to us, what happened to our promises and the childish dreams we shared? Most of the people I once held so dear have now drifted, and yet my world hasn't collapsed, like I thought it would if they left. And now, There Still Are people I hold close now and think that life will cease without them, crumble if they left me- I guess it's human nature, I'll never learn.
Wasn't so long ago was it? That Daniel and Jon used to run around hiding my bag and coming over to my place to swim. That Wayne used to bang on the piano in my living room and how patient he was when teaching me to cycle. That Debbie gave me that watch and I gave her that engraved pen. That Sherwin waited downstairs my tuition place for me. That Nicky would wait up at night in case I got a nightmare. That Shuchua would come see me everyday. That Max would tell me how gorgeous I am. That Celene and Lavinia and I would go shopping. That Charlotte was my bestfriend. That Pearlyn would sing Atomic Kitten with me in class, and write about love being a four letter acronym. That Kenny would be playing hide and seek. That Natal would be right there beside me whenever I turned my head. That Beverly and I were actually non-hostile.
Picture #1, a Clique from a long time ago.
Wayne and Debbie and Max and Joshua and Daniel and I.
We baked pizzas and had sleepovers almost monthly. We wrote letters. We went cycling and swimming and we had barbecues and played truth or dare. We sat out on the concrete floor, lying atop one another, just looking at the stars. We laughed and we cried. We had late night conversations and 9pm mass online chats. We grew up together damn it, and swore to be best friends forever. And now all that's left are memories, and a faded picture dated 8 April 2001.
All our paths split, some have drifted away, some I seldom even remember and some who followed me through my teenage years and have become so close to me, they feel like my second skin. What happened to us, what happened to our promises and the childish dreams we shared? Most of the people I once held so dear have now drifted, and yet my world hasn't collapsed, like I thought it would if they left. And now, There Still Are people I hold close now and think that life will cease without them, crumble if they left me- I guess it's human nature, I'll never learn.
Wasn't so long ago was it? That Daniel and Jon used to run around hiding my bag and coming over to my place to swim. That Wayne used to bang on the piano in my living room and how patient he was when teaching me to cycle. That Debbie gave me that watch and I gave her that engraved pen. That Sherwin waited downstairs my tuition place for me. That Nicky would wait up at night in case I got a nightmare. That Shuchua would come see me everyday. That Max would tell me how gorgeous I am. That Celene and Lavinia and I would go shopping. That Charlotte was my bestfriend. That Pearlyn would sing Atomic Kitten with me in class, and write about love being a four letter acronym. That Kenny would be playing hide and seek. That Natal would be right there beside me whenever I turned my head. That Beverly and I were actually non-hostile.
Picture #1, a Clique from a long time ago.
Wayne and Debbie and Max and Joshua and Daniel and I.
We baked pizzas and had sleepovers almost monthly. We wrote letters. We went cycling and swimming and we had barbecues and played truth or dare. We sat out on the concrete floor, lying atop one another, just looking at the stars. We laughed and we cried. We had late night conversations and 9pm mass online chats. We grew up together damn it, and swore to be best friends forever. And now all that's left are memories, and a faded picture dated 8 April 2001.