i'm so lazy to get out of my work clothes

[fake_smiles]

I'm back to what i call the "goonies.."
i don't like it here but this is what my parents asked for.
    I  left my studio.
I miss there. The white walls.
Echo.
My little place.
    I just Need to think positive.
Moving back will help me save money.
Help my parents.
Be closer to everything.

i don't know what else to think
feel...

I feel so Lost, Lonely, Trap.
I've been doing nothing.
Sitting my ass on an old couch
burn burn burn
forget time
forget the day
forget life.

I know I'll be okay
I just don't know what's missing
is it LOVE?
   that fucking word has always been an issue.
and i've been loving
start smiling.
feel my heart jump each time my phone beeps.
 all this feelings are so far away from reality
but it makes me happy.
you make me happy.

there are things that actually makes me happy.
and  those things are very rare.