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Well good evening!
I'm searching for a good opening for this post. Something witty that can transition to what I really want to talk about, which is how things are going in my life right now. I was in a relationship that started a couple months before I left for Orlando and ended just recently. It became incredibly complicated at the end, but now that I'm rid of the situation (almost) entirely, I can't tell you how much happier I am. It was sad, as is any end to a relationship, but I have so much hope and confidence in myself (things that weren't even remotely present at the end of my previous relationship), that I'm very optimist about the future.
For the past week I've slowly begun rebuilding my foundation that comprises all the elements that make me awesome. If I had to tack on a number, I'd say I'm 80% there. Every now and then waves of insecurity hit me when I find myself without plans on some nights. The best solution I've found for this is to keep myself productively distracted. Instead of drinking, or looking for a rebound, I look for ways to enhance myself as a person. If life were an RPG, I'd be in the process of leveling up my character. For me, working out and learning new songs on guitar are great. I also watch a lot of TV and movies, which isn't necessarily productive, but entertaining enough to keep me occupied.
There are a few things I want to do in the future. One, play more tennis. Two, join a pool league. Three, (this should probably be number one) get a job with opportunities. Four, move to Colorado. Man, I really want to end up in Colorado soon.. in the mountains. If I were to live in Colorado, I'd be happy waiting tables up there. It would be even more awesome to work for the ski patrol at a resort, so I can ski AND save lives. That would be incredibly fulfilling.
So yea, things are just kinda up in the air for now. I don't exactly enjoy this feeling of aimlessness, but it's merely a speed bump for now. Like, things are so good for me now when I think about it. I am completely free to do whatever I want. I have no ties. No kids. No girlfriend. With the exception of my car note, no debt. I can do whatever I want..... That most likely won't be the case later on in life, so why on Earth could I not be happy? This truly is the best time of my life, and I'm a fool not to enjoy myself.
On a final, gay note.... HAVE A HAPPY TURKEY DAY LOLOLOL@! GOBBLE GOOBLE.
P.S. I don't know if anyone who reads this has seen the new Twilight movie, but..... Snape kills Edward. Sorry.
I'm searching for a good opening for this post. Something witty that can transition to what I really want to talk about, which is how things are going in my life right now. I was in a relationship that started a couple months before I left for Orlando and ended just recently. It became incredibly complicated at the end, but now that I'm rid of the situation (almost) entirely, I can't tell you how much happier I am. It was sad, as is any end to a relationship, but I have so much hope and confidence in myself (things that weren't even remotely present at the end of my previous relationship), that I'm very optimist about the future.
For the past week I've slowly begun rebuilding my foundation that comprises all the elements that make me awesome. If I had to tack on a number, I'd say I'm 80% there. Every now and then waves of insecurity hit me when I find myself without plans on some nights. The best solution I've found for this is to keep myself productively distracted. Instead of drinking, or looking for a rebound, I look for ways to enhance myself as a person. If life were an RPG, I'd be in the process of leveling up my character. For me, working out and learning new songs on guitar are great. I also watch a lot of TV and movies, which isn't necessarily productive, but entertaining enough to keep me occupied.
There are a few things I want to do in the future. One, play more tennis. Two, join a pool league. Three, (this should probably be number one) get a job with opportunities. Four, move to Colorado. Man, I really want to end up in Colorado soon.. in the mountains. If I were to live in Colorado, I'd be happy waiting tables up there. It would be even more awesome to work for the ski patrol at a resort, so I can ski AND save lives. That would be incredibly fulfilling.
So yea, things are just kinda up in the air for now. I don't exactly enjoy this feeling of aimlessness, but it's merely a speed bump for now. Like, things are so good for me now when I think about it. I am completely free to do whatever I want. I have no ties. No kids. No girlfriend. With the exception of my car note, no debt. I can do whatever I want..... That most likely won't be the case later on in life, so why on Earth could I not be happy? This truly is the best time of my life, and I'm a fool not to enjoy myself.
On a final, gay note.... HAVE A HAPPY TURKEY DAY LOLOLOL@! GOBBLE GOOBLE.
P.S. I don't know if anyone who reads this has seen the new Twilight movie, but..... Snape kills Edward. Sorry.