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I feel weird.
I think about life and how it's a ride. You meet people along your journey, people you become very close with, and yet, through some turn of events or another, eventually you never see them again.
Richard, am i ever going to see you again? When did it become dependent upon me to determine that? GOD DAMNIT. Friendships are two way streets. I hate always being the one who has to initiate things in order to hang out with people.
Goddamn, I'm a mess. I dunno why. I try my best, or rather, I say to myself that I tried my best. In retrospect I like to think I gave everything my best. I probably don't. SIGHHHHHH. I dunno what to feel. I just.... don't know.
I miss so many people.
Jake Potter called me tonight. Had a drink with him. We regaled each other with silly stories from the past. He said something like, "You know it seems like it was just yesterday when Matt and Travis moved into UPA." I thought about that and all the things that have happened in the past year, and I said, "No it doesn't."
LiveJournal's been quite a bummer over the past few months. No one updates anymore.
I wonder if it's like this for most people, but it's funny how easy it is to feel down when you were once happy, and so hard to feel happy when you are currently down. Like, I can tell myself that things are great, and ya know, they are. I mean, I am healthy, have a great relationship with my family. Great friends. But when you're down it's so, so, so easy to forget about it and focus on the negativity that's preocupying you. And it's overwhelming because it creates an aura that things will NEVER be as good as they once were. Things might improve, slightly, but they'll never return to the greatness of a former time. And to be perfectly honest, that's how things feel now.