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u know what.. SCREW my depression on trying to get over jonathan.. because i think im actually getting over him. After this weekand im ready to move on... i mean yeah i cried when i saw him and when his team and his mom in that matter were all against me... but u know what.. who cares.. its all peer pressure that HE has to deal w/ and if u can't deal w/ the fact that HIS TEAM AND HIS MOM hate me then u know what.. thats his problem.. not mine.. RITE? (not to be a bitch but im realizin some stuff here)
Today was the best day ever.. considering yestorday sucked....(cept i bought a prom dress so i just have to tell derek the color of it!!) woke up late for church, listened to the sermon (for ONCE), talk to jonathan, ATE GREASY food (for once), then got stuck on the perfect way to ask a guy to prom.. haha well Amanda called me and i was like yeah so i wanna ask someone to prom.. heehee.. so i got to her house.. put on my freshman homcoming dress, we made a poster, and then left for his house... of course we called before hand to make sure he was home and he was.. but well we got there and amanda rang the doorbell and his dad came out and i was like um is derek there and he was like yah come on in.. so well we did and he went to go get him.. well i was standing in the middle of his living room w/ a sign that said "will u go to prom w/ me?" with 3 boxes.. a yes, YES! and a sure.. he had just woken up so it was exciting and well he came out and said yes and checked all the boxes.. YAH BOYZZ.. im excited.. today was a good day.. and then i went to youth group and actually enjoyed it.. WOW!!! good day
O happy day.. o happy day.... o yeah n i think i will still miss jonathan... :sad: but well i really cant rely on what should have been or what could have been in our relationship... i just wasn't good enough for his mom and i will keep it at that.. maybe someday he will realize what he is missing but i will let him go for now... hmm yeah im still haveing a good day so BYE...
BIG BIG BEAR HUGS!!!!