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so anthony's grad party.
i didnt know what to expect. i wasnt sure if he was gonna have friends over or a lot of family or what. turns out, its all people from eastern, mike's mother, and josephine's sister and her husband. AND NO OLGA. so i was comfortable, i had a good time. for the first like hour and a half, i sat with my mom, stacy, and josephine. but then after i ate dinner, i noticed anthony was sitting on one of those swing thingamajigs they have and my dad was sitting on a chair by him so i went over and sat with them. on my own chair, i thought sitting on the swing might be a little too much. then john parker came over, and for a little while it was just the three of them talking about umpiring, then somebody mentioned jobs, and anthony was talking about how he needed a job and i told him he could have mine. so i was telling him about my job, and things were good. then they started talking about how bad all our eastern teams are and stuff so i was part of that convo, too. then anthony was talking about how he could never be a coach and i was saying how i was ready to kill myself after tball season. then we were pretty much talking about that kind of stuff until me and my parents left. but when we were leaving, anthony was getting a drink, and the coolers were right where the gate to leave was. so my mom was the first to say goodbye to him and then it was my turn. so he goes to kiss me, you know on the cheek kind of thing, and he was looking right into my eyes [his eyes are really really blue btw] and he touched my arm and kept there even after we pulled away. IALMOSTDIED. like wow, i got so nervous being so close to him. but it was a good feeling, almost like that time he asked me to adjust his chest protector for him.
i called valerie halfway through the night so it looked like i actually do have friends. then i realized that there were a lot of people around and no secluded corner to go to or anything so i couldnt tell her too much. oh well. it was a good night anyway. <3
one sad thing, though. mike was talking about how he wants to move to florida. if ant has to go with them, that pretty much guarantees i'll never ever see him again. but if by chance they do move, which hopefully wont be for a long long time, that would be the perfect time to tell ant how much i like him.
but lets hope he never has to find out that way, because thats just depressing.
i didnt know what to expect. i wasnt sure if he was gonna have friends over or a lot of family or what. turns out, its all people from eastern, mike's mother, and josephine's sister and her husband. AND NO OLGA. so i was comfortable, i had a good time. for the first like hour and a half, i sat with my mom, stacy, and josephine. but then after i ate dinner, i noticed anthony was sitting on one of those swing thingamajigs they have and my dad was sitting on a chair by him so i went over and sat with them. on my own chair, i thought sitting on the swing might be a little too much. then john parker came over, and for a little while it was just the three of them talking about umpiring, then somebody mentioned jobs, and anthony was talking about how he needed a job and i told him he could have mine. so i was telling him about my job, and things were good. then they started talking about how bad all our eastern teams are and stuff so i was part of that convo, too. then anthony was talking about how he could never be a coach and i was saying how i was ready to kill myself after tball season. then we were pretty much talking about that kind of stuff until me and my parents left. but when we were leaving, anthony was getting a drink, and the coolers were right where the gate to leave was. so my mom was the first to say goodbye to him and then it was my turn. so he goes to kiss me, you know on the cheek kind of thing, and he was looking right into my eyes [his eyes are really really blue btw] and he touched my arm and kept there even after we pulled away. IALMOSTDIED. like wow, i got so nervous being so close to him. but it was a good feeling, almost like that time he asked me to adjust his chest protector for him.
i called valerie halfway through the night so it looked like i actually do have friends. then i realized that there were a lot of people around and no secluded corner to go to or anything so i couldnt tell her too much. oh well. it was a good night anyway. <3
one sad thing, though. mike was talking about how he wants to move to florida. if ant has to go with them, that pretty much guarantees i'll never ever see him again. but if by chance they do move, which hopefully wont be for a long long time, that would be the perfect time to tell ant how much i like him.
but lets hope he never has to find out that way, because thats just depressing.