this will be a really really long entry...
so yesterday i started working, and i got stuff that usually takes other people 3 days to finish done in 1 day, so i didnt have to go in today. but its an extra 70 bucks i wont be making. oh well, tomorrow i'll work slower so i have to go in more next week.
then i had my english SAT tutor. she was so great, i loved her. and it helps that i already love english, so that wasnt bad. then we came home and the tv wasnt working and we couldnt figure out what was wrong with it. so since i couldnt watch tv and i didnt feel like sitting in front of the comp or doing anything productive, i went to bed at like 9:30. but before i fell asleep, i was doing a reevaluation of my life. there are some good points, but a lot more bad points.
+ i have good parents who both have good jobs and can afford a nice little house and 3 cars (both my parents' and mine) and still have money leftover so we wont ever have problems with bills or debt.
+ i have a good brother and a good soon-to-be sister in law who will make even more money than my parents do.
+ i have a nice car, nice clothes, and a few good friends - which actually turns out to be a bad point later on, you'll see why.
so thats the very short good stuff list. here's the bad stuff:
- my love life sucks. i always like the wrong boys and wind up getting hurt without even getting involved with them. and the ones that i've kind of been involved with, in some way (for example, mike and anthony) choose to go out with ugly, slutty girls. and then i feel like god's planted some conspiracy against me that's gonna leave me alone for the rest of my life. when am i finally gonna like someone who actually likes me back and doesn't care about sex or anything like that? definitely not in high school, where all the boys in my class - school, actually - are obnoxious idiots who only go out with girls who like to get drunk every night.
- my friends. when i left st. andrew's, i had 5 really close friends. then only 2 of those friends ended up staying close. then when i started playing basketball in high school, i made four new good friends. then one left our little group and decided to hang out with the 'drunk-every-night' crowd. then i randomly started talking to jessica at a football game and we became friends. then all during sophomore year, ash, katie, nicole, melissa, valerie, laura, carolyn, and jessica were my really close friends. at the end of my junior year of HS, this is my 'good friend count' - ash, katie, valerie, jess. how does a person go from having 13 close friends to just 4? and i wonder why i dont have a social life...
- i'm stuck with a grandmother who thinks she knows everything about everyone and thinks she has the right to tell me that i dont know how to choose my friends. i'm 17, i've been through 3 years of high school, i think im mature enough to know what kind of people i need to stay away from, thanks gram, but i can make decisions on my own, i dont need you to criticize all the people in my life.
there are about 10 other things that i wish not to put here, but yeah, that's the story of my sad, sad, life.
then i had my english SAT tutor. she was so great, i loved her. and it helps that i already love english, so that wasnt bad. then we came home and the tv wasnt working and we couldnt figure out what was wrong with it. so since i couldnt watch tv and i didnt feel like sitting in front of the comp or doing anything productive, i went to bed at like 9:30. but before i fell asleep, i was doing a reevaluation of my life. there are some good points, but a lot more bad points.
+ i have good parents who both have good jobs and can afford a nice little house and 3 cars (both my parents' and mine) and still have money leftover so we wont ever have problems with bills or debt.
+ i have a good brother and a good soon-to-be sister in law who will make even more money than my parents do.
+ i have a nice car, nice clothes, and a few good friends - which actually turns out to be a bad point later on, you'll see why.
so thats the very short good stuff list. here's the bad stuff:
- my love life sucks. i always like the wrong boys and wind up getting hurt without even getting involved with them. and the ones that i've kind of been involved with, in some way (for example, mike and anthony) choose to go out with ugly, slutty girls. and then i feel like god's planted some conspiracy against me that's gonna leave me alone for the rest of my life. when am i finally gonna like someone who actually likes me back and doesn't care about sex or anything like that? definitely not in high school, where all the boys in my class - school, actually - are obnoxious idiots who only go out with girls who like to get drunk every night.
- my friends. when i left st. andrew's, i had 5 really close friends. then only 2 of those friends ended up staying close. then when i started playing basketball in high school, i made four new good friends. then one left our little group and decided to hang out with the 'drunk-every-night' crowd. then i randomly started talking to jessica at a football game and we became friends. then all during sophomore year, ash, katie, nicole, melissa, valerie, laura, carolyn, and jessica were my really close friends. at the end of my junior year of HS, this is my 'good friend count' - ash, katie, valerie, jess. how does a person go from having 13 close friends to just 4? and i wonder why i dont have a social life...
- i'm stuck with a grandmother who thinks she knows everything about everyone and thinks she has the right to tell me that i dont know how to choose my friends. i'm 17, i've been through 3 years of high school, i think im mature enough to know what kind of people i need to stay away from, thanks gram, but i can make decisions on my own, i dont need you to criticize all the people in my life.
there are about 10 other things that i wish not to put here, but yeah, that's the story of my sad, sad, life.