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yeaaah, so i deleted some friends.
kept some. read my journal. don't read it.
whatever you choose. yeaaah.
i could never write what i feel in here. so i'm going to try. type everything down. and only delete my errors. don't read it if you could care less. here goes nothing.
well, i could never feel any awefuller. yesterday i must say was and is going to be the worst day of my summer. i wasn't mad, i was more like enraged than sad. stuff like this always happens to me. and i've come to get used to it. but yesterday was by far the worst it can get. i don't even know what i saw in this guy. heh, it's funny.. i thought he was the greatest person in the world and i thought so highly of him. i never knew what it felt like to wear my heart on my sleave. and now i do. and how aweful i am at it. he stated he liked me, he was the one who put the label of us DATING, and he called it off like that. and i'm not saying he's the bad guy at all. my best friend even told me that we're both at fault. i say a lot of shit. and he took a lot of it. so i guess i have some faults. what gets me the most is he didn't give a clear explanation on why. but, i guess i know what it is.. the first thing i did was laugh. i went in my sister's room said fuck a couple of times and laughed. then it wasn't funny anymore. i couldn't laugh it away like it was nothing. so i cried. dasjlkfjewaoihjg. my sister told me to stop, and said that it wasn't worth crying over. crying didn't do anything. so i went to sleep. woke up around 11 30 this morning. and was good as new. i talked to my best friend today. she made me feel better. then later on i talked to my new FRIEND, and he cheered me up more. i really wanted to ignore the situation like nothing happened. and act normal as if i never met him. too bad it's not as easy as i wanted it to be. i'm a very forgiving person. dafjklwahog i'll get over it.
ok bye.