jonathan

[faithtonothing]

a different kind of love. a love i've never felt

never close enough

you are out there
lingering in the distance
i can see you
i dream of you
but they are not enough
not enough

i wish to taste your words on my lips again
can't we come closer
you are something that i can never have
that i can never make happen

dreams of us together
laughter
a place where pain does not enter
maybe if you reach far enough
i can feel the tips of your fingers

stretching over a cravesse
i lean over the edge
reaching for you
pleading for the feeling

i scare myself with my thoughts
to run away
and be with you forever
i listen to my words
and i cringe at my need of you

you give me life
the power to smile
i close my eyes again
and i wish that you were there
when i opened them

tears run down my cheek
as i write of you
i dream of you here to kiss them softly away
god jonthan i need you
i will miss you with everything inside of me
you are the only one i have ever wanted that i couldn't have
and it makes me so sad
the thing is that it also makes me happy
cuz i know that someday you will find an amazingly real girl
who you will make so happy
as you have done to me
you have given me the most beautiful gift
and i can never thank you enough
never
never

enough

everywhere i look you are all i see