I hate myself I want to die but Im graduating so go me
I am so bored, in my usual rut of being unmotivated and sad for no reason at all. I just dont know what to tell myself any more. I suck and thats great. Hey atleast in getting laid every once in a while and I have someone that doesnt treat me like Im in his debt (though i am) I mean all i can say is that im better off than I was with my last major pain in my pocket.
I used to be so oppinionated and thought I knew a thing or 2 about everything now Im so mousey and frightened to speak and make decisions its really quite scary considering I want my own bussiness eventually. Its almost like I dont want to keep going like im just so uninspired and with my job jerking me around I feel like Ive been bad and am being punished for nothing and they wont let me advance anywhere Im about to just fucking quit. I hate it there and i almost miss kroger.man that is sad....
So I think my main problem is that im just not challenged at all with anything I do and its starting to wear me out, just droning on through my day with nothing to show for it except a car thats dinged to shit and a car payment that i canr even pay because this damn job wont give me any hours because they all hate me for no reason.the must have something against braids.
A lighter note: I fucking graduated whooo whoo. High school is now not in my list of self descrtiptive words. so yea Im going to actally graduate on the 4th . so send me money bitches Lissa Needs to make a car payment and get a new tattoo!!!!
I used to be so oppinionated and thought I knew a thing or 2 about everything now Im so mousey and frightened to speak and make decisions its really quite scary considering I want my own bussiness eventually. Its almost like I dont want to keep going like im just so uninspired and with my job jerking me around I feel like Ive been bad and am being punished for nothing and they wont let me advance anywhere Im about to just fucking quit. I hate it there and i almost miss kroger.man that is sad....
So I think my main problem is that im just not challenged at all with anything I do and its starting to wear me out, just droning on through my day with nothing to show for it except a car thats dinged to shit and a car payment that i canr even pay because this damn job wont give me any hours because they all hate me for no reason.the must have something against braids.
A lighter note: I fucking graduated whooo whoo. High school is now not in my list of self descrtiptive words. so yea Im going to actally graduate on the 4th . so send me money bitches Lissa Needs to make a car payment and get a new tattoo!!!!