Dear Ex Boyfriend
Lately during the holidays i think about you and wonder how you are doing but sense there's a few of you out there and only one maybe 2 of you read this i hope that you will take this with a good heart and i do mean it with the best of intentions.
I hope you and your girlfriend/wife are doing well
I hope you have everything you need and are working toward the goals and dreams you told me about previously
I hope you don't think this is just about you because you weren't my only ex boyfriend so don't call me and freak out thinking that you are the only person on my mind.
The men in my life have shaped the way i view things and with a son it helps a lot to know what kind of guy i would like him to be (successful boyfriends know who you are) and who i don't want him to resemble in the slightest (immature assholes here)
In shaping my life in some ways you all have helped me realize how happy I can be and the wonderful moments of silence that others can share with you in spirit knowing that no matter what a piece of you will always remain with the other is a beautiful thing and is only ruined when that piece is turned to bitterness and hurt.
I hope you accepted my apologies and those of you that didn't or won't i am sorry i messed up so badly but i hope that that anger and hurt doesn't control you on any level because as messed up as it is if you allow it to then i am still more a part of your life then you want me to be and not in a positive way and then you start blaming me for a lot of mistakes that you made and it becomes a huge frigging mess.
I think of all the things that i learned from these encounters and i wonder if you came out alright in the end as well. I really hope something positive came from it because dating me involves serious highs and lows and even if we didn't end on a high note i really hope you took something from those highs with you.
Some part of my heart will always love each and every one of you for different reasons and at the same time i am very glad we are no longer dating as some of you had way more issues then even i could handle.
i hope your girlfriends and wives are better suited to you then i was and i hope that things turn out in bliss for you.
All in all i thank god that i met you and i really hope that you will be happy and healthy for the rest of your days even if you never talk to me again and if you talk to me regularly i hope that you understand that this wasn't just for you but for every single guy that reached my heart on this level
With lots of love
CJMH
I hope you and your girlfriend/wife are doing well
I hope you have everything you need and are working toward the goals and dreams you told me about previously
I hope you don't think this is just about you because you weren't my only ex boyfriend so don't call me and freak out thinking that you are the only person on my mind.
The men in my life have shaped the way i view things and with a son it helps a lot to know what kind of guy i would like him to be (successful boyfriends know who you are) and who i don't want him to resemble in the slightest (immature assholes here)
In shaping my life in some ways you all have helped me realize how happy I can be and the wonderful moments of silence that others can share with you in spirit knowing that no matter what a piece of you will always remain with the other is a beautiful thing and is only ruined when that piece is turned to bitterness and hurt.
I hope you accepted my apologies and those of you that didn't or won't i am sorry i messed up so badly but i hope that that anger and hurt doesn't control you on any level because as messed up as it is if you allow it to then i am still more a part of your life then you want me to be and not in a positive way and then you start blaming me for a lot of mistakes that you made and it becomes a huge frigging mess.
I think of all the things that i learned from these encounters and i wonder if you came out alright in the end as well. I really hope something positive came from it because dating me involves serious highs and lows and even if we didn't end on a high note i really hope you took something from those highs with you.
Some part of my heart will always love each and every one of you for different reasons and at the same time i am very glad we are no longer dating as some of you had way more issues then even i could handle.
i hope your girlfriends and wives are better suited to you then i was and i hope that things turn out in bliss for you.
All in all i thank god that i met you and i really hope that you will be happy and healthy for the rest of your days even if you never talk to me again and if you talk to me regularly i hope that you understand that this wasn't just for you but for every single guy that reached my heart on this level
With lots of love
CJMH