Moving On
I will probably regret putting this on electronic paper so to speak but what the heck. I am so sad and confused. Everyone seems to be happy and moving on except for me! I hate being left behind. Hell, even Phil is happy! I'm so much more afraid now to be out there alone than I was before. It frightens me that everyone is happy with someone and I have to leave someone and be all alone. This sucks! I in no way blame anyone for moving on, I realize that's what life is all about but jealousy and saddness invade my thought latley. Why can't I get a brain and move on? I miss the way things used to be simple and clear I loved someone they didn't love me back but now it's all clouded with fear of lonliness and the terrible fear of dying alone. I am terrified that when I die no one will care, it will be as if I never existed. I can't write anymore because I feel sick and need to cry about a thousand years.