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Imagine, I haven't posted since December.. rediculous of me I know.
I could use the excuse that life has been busy but recently it really hasn't been that busy. Life, well is life. I am working full-time right now saving for a car and taking two online classes which has me somewhat busy. However, I have adjusted to the work and now am bored every evening.
Those who know me from HOL know how much I loved it. I miss it dreadfully but I still know leaving was the best choice. However, I don't know where to go now. I find myself checking the forums even though I quit, which is silly since things have just continued on without me. Even if you leave the world goes on. People keep doing what they were doing before. It always seems people are better at moving on then I am.
Currently I am very lonely and I am fighting with everything I have not to cling to some other addiction that will make giving up HOL useless. I explained in my leaving post that I left because I thought it was the best thing to do and that I needed to focus on RL, both are true. But also a main reason I decided to leave was that I couldn't let online things have a hold on me anymore. I need to be my own person, free to make friends in my city, free to do things on the weekend without worrying about missing a Quidditch match.
I loved it all, but three years was enough. I had to give it up before this Spring and waiting any longer would have only made it harder. So now I am fighting going back. So basically what this rambly post is suppose to say is that I do still love HOL, but I can't allow it to have a place in my life right now. I need to focus on things good for me.
That doesn't mean however that I don't want to keep in touch. I really do want to keep in touch with everyone. Please feel free to contact me. I can always use someone to chat with. Things will be rough for a while, HOL was part of me. No matter what anyone says I always did my best for HOL and I cared a lot about it. As with anything there are always things you do and say that you wish you could take back and I know I have some of it but overall I'm glad HOL was part of my life. At the time I joined I needed it and people welcomed me in with open arms. I will never forget that. Now I have to learn how to stand on my own feet.
I could use the excuse that life has been busy but recently it really hasn't been that busy. Life, well is life. I am working full-time right now saving for a car and taking two online classes which has me somewhat busy. However, I have adjusted to the work and now am bored every evening.
Those who know me from HOL know how much I loved it. I miss it dreadfully but I still know leaving was the best choice. However, I don't know where to go now. I find myself checking the forums even though I quit, which is silly since things have just continued on without me. Even if you leave the world goes on. People keep doing what they were doing before. It always seems people are better at moving on then I am.
Currently I am very lonely and I am fighting with everything I have not to cling to some other addiction that will make giving up HOL useless. I explained in my leaving post that I left because I thought it was the best thing to do and that I needed to focus on RL, both are true. But also a main reason I decided to leave was that I couldn't let online things have a hold on me anymore. I need to be my own person, free to make friends in my city, free to do things on the weekend without worrying about missing a Quidditch match.
I loved it all, but three years was enough. I had to give it up before this Spring and waiting any longer would have only made it harder. So now I am fighting going back. So basically what this rambly post is suppose to say is that I do still love HOL, but I can't allow it to have a place in my life right now. I need to focus on things good for me.
That doesn't mean however that I don't want to keep in touch. I really do want to keep in touch with everyone. Please feel free to contact me. I can always use someone to chat with. Things will be rough for a while, HOL was part of me. No matter what anyone says I always did my best for HOL and I cared a lot about it. As with anything there are always things you do and say that you wish you could take back and I know I have some of it but overall I'm glad HOL was part of my life. At the time I joined I needed it and people welcomed me in with open arms. I will never forget that. Now I have to learn how to stand on my own feet.