Cross Posted
I find it interesting that the self-professed loners of the world have incredibly large community groups on Myspace. Doesn't it go against the definition of a "loner" to have over 200 friends or members in your community?
I am amazed that with all the people I know that I don't have community. I don't have a place I "fit in". I think I am actually somewhat glad about that. I don't want to fit in with a population. I enjoy being a bit different. The world would be a very boring place if everyone were the same. But still it would be nice to know that there are people who are accepting of others. That's the point isn't it? We are to be loving and accepting of others, right? Even the "loners" expect you to act a certain way or dress a certain way. What if I don't? You will judge me because of my clothes, my taste in music, the coffee I like, the books I read, and my choice in religion. Pick one and I've probably been judged because of it. I'm not saying I don't do the same thing. I am just as guilty as you are. I realize this. I wonder if we will ever get over all this and just get to know each other.
I've been thinking about moving a lot lately. Not anytime soon of course but just over my lifetime. There are so many places I want to see. I want to travel the world. I want to take in the beautiful views in Europe. I want to sit in Central Park and read a good book. I want to ride the L until I get lost in Chicago. I want to sit on the beach in California. I want to sit with the children in Africa. I want to see the sky and the oceans and everything in between.
I wonder what stops me from going. I really have nothing keeping me here. I was sitting with a friend recently and she asked me what was keeping me here. I gave her the generic answer of lack of funds, time, and family. All of which I knew were excuses. So, why? Really….why do I stay? I suppose I am too afraid to pack up and go. Afraid to leave what I know and afraid to be alone (completely alone).
Does it always come down to fear?