So Much...
I swear, I need to write the world's longest private post. So much shit in my brain and I'm slowly driving myself nuts.
All I want is for the people that I care about to be happy, but sometimes that's apparently too much to ask for. Somethings just.....aaah, no point in going nuts about it right now. When I think about it, all I bring is pain. Yes, I can act stupid and make some people laugh but after that it's just pain. When I try to help it all just comes crashing down and hurting people.
I'm always trying to butt in to help out, well, supposedly help out. But when I think on it, I'm not helping I'm just making matters worse. I'm tired of it and I'm going to stop. People can make their decisions without needing me. The overall point is that, people don't need me. I'm just another walking body, that's just here for people's amusement. Trust me, I know that people don't need me. They can make their decisions on their own, or find someone that is actually helpful.
Sometimes, I wonder when it is that I'm leaving.
Sometimes, I wish that it would come sooner.
All I want is for the people that I care about to be happy, but sometimes that's apparently too much to ask for. Somethings just.....aaah, no point in going nuts about it right now. When I think about it, all I bring is pain. Yes, I can act stupid and make some people laugh but after that it's just pain. When I try to help it all just comes crashing down and hurting people.
I'm always trying to butt in to help out, well, supposedly help out. But when I think on it, I'm not helping I'm just making matters worse. I'm tired of it and I'm going to stop. People can make their decisions without needing me. The overall point is that, people don't need me. I'm just another walking body, that's just here for people's amusement. Trust me, I know that people don't need me. They can make their decisions on their own, or find someone that is actually helpful.
Sometimes, I wonder when it is that I'm leaving.
Sometimes, I wish that it would come sooner.