Neglect
I honestly am so sick of the house I live in.
Not really the house itself, which is nice and spacious, but I'm sick of the people that live in it.
My mom, an extremely religious, close minded, special-ed teacher, never even gives me the time of day.
I hate talking to her. So it's rare for me to actually try, but when I do she will just shoo me away and tell me that she doesn't want to listen to me.
I don't care how much I dislike having even the smallest of conversations with her, I just wish she would listen sometimes.
I was trying to tell her about how I want to become a film director, but she just put me down. She pretty much said I wouldn't be able to do it, then told me to think of something else to do.
I don't know how to describe in words how much that hurt.
She told me that I wouldn't even want to be a director in the future, she said that I only think I want to do that because that's what everyone my age thinks ... as she put it.
It's almost as if she thinks every 16 - 17 year old is exactly the same. A dumb shell. I freaking hate her logic.
A little later on I told her that I wanted to by a turntable / record player for my birthday as a gift to myself. She laughed at me and said that was dumb. Thanks mom.
I don't know, I just hate the fact that if you're any different than she is or want to do anything different than she does she will put you down for it it. If you're me, at least. I wish she would just learn to support me instead of telling me to go away when I actually try to talk to her. I don't have a dad, so I really don't have any parent figure to talk to. She's my mom but at the same time I feel like she's not. I feel like she just works to pay the bills and comes home just to watch a movie on Netflix and sleep. If I was anyone else, say a co-worker or a sibling, she would actually listen to what I have to say. But I'm just some disappointing kid she happened to give birth to.
Not really the house itself, which is nice and spacious, but I'm sick of the people that live in it.
My mom, an extremely religious, close minded, special-ed teacher, never even gives me the time of day.
I hate talking to her. So it's rare for me to actually try, but when I do she will just shoo me away and tell me that she doesn't want to listen to me.
I don't care how much I dislike having even the smallest of conversations with her, I just wish she would listen sometimes.
I was trying to tell her about how I want to become a film director, but she just put me down. She pretty much said I wouldn't be able to do it, then told me to think of something else to do.
I don't know how to describe in words how much that hurt.
She told me that I wouldn't even want to be a director in the future, she said that I only think I want to do that because that's what everyone my age thinks ... as she put it.
It's almost as if she thinks every 16 - 17 year old is exactly the same. A dumb shell. I freaking hate her logic.
A little later on I told her that I wanted to by a turntable / record player for my birthday as a gift to myself. She laughed at me and said that was dumb. Thanks mom.
I don't know, I just hate the fact that if you're any different than she is or want to do anything different than she does she will put you down for it it. If you're me, at least. I wish she would just learn to support me instead of telling me to go away when I actually try to talk to her. I don't have a dad, so I really don't have any parent figure to talk to. She's my mom but at the same time I feel like she's not. I feel like she just works to pay the bills and comes home just to watch a movie on Netflix and sleep. If I was anyone else, say a co-worker or a sibling, she would actually listen to what I have to say. But I'm just some disappointing kid she happened to give birth to.